Thursday, December 30, 2004

Get Shorty

Use the link above.
Here is the pic of my new haircut. Please post comments.
so I got a hair cut recently. I will post a pic soon.
And I think I may be part of a DUPE on slashdot.

Tuesday, December 28, 2004

Go Mom and Dad

I got some great stuff for christmas this year.
My favorite gift is this cord jacket from orvis. I have been looking for a blue cord jacket for awhile and I found it. Sadly it is a gray/blue. But is really cool. I also got a new 40 gb ipod. I really having an ipod in my life again. You have no idea how much it changes your life till it leaves it. I also got a nintendo ds. It really an amazing device the power of a nintendo 64 in your palm. The touch-screen is a new spin on the analogue interface. But I am still getting used to it. I am still trying to find just the right hand grip for it. I also got alot of dvds and books. But I will not list all those.
Thank you very much mom and dad.

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

The Force is Storng with her

Eleanor has a power about her. I know because I have the power to it comes from intellgince.

I noticed something every person she has dated has ended up scorned and bitter. Whit is a prime example of course. But j speed dated her once upon a time and look what happened he can not stand her. What power does she posses that allows her to do this. Is she even aware that she has this power over people?

I wonder if I am given the oppertunity to date her will I end up in the same situation as all the others. Bittered and scorned.

Yet I would be serious about it unlike whit who cheated on her on multiple times whit you are a dumbass for doing that by the way.

I think if given the chance I would succed where others have failed.

Sunday, December 12, 2004

Robert's Blog

Noncombatant: A dead Quaker. -- Ambrose Bierce

Saturday, December 11, 2004

Robert's Blog

I was able to hide all feeling for all those many years I can do it again. It would be simple but now it is all there out in the open. It has left my mind it is now the giant pink elephant in the room Thank god I am on meds who knows what would have happened with out them.

Well this whole thing would not have happened this was all caused by the fact the anexity went away I thought I had a chance.

I WAS WRONG!
oh so very very wrong

this is just like before I met her no techtv/zdtv and I am bored at school. My lord it is like before the screen savers is gone and so was the dream.

Robert

deprograming

I am slowly over time removeing all feelings for eleanor from my mind. It is hard because it has been a part of me for many years. But slowly I am being able to do it. I really wish I did not have to. So many dreams are getting repressed. So many thoughts. It is what I must do I must accept I must move on.

Robert

Friday, December 10, 2004

quiz

ABOUT YOURSELF...
[known as] cunningham
[guy/girl] male
[age] 16
[location] louisville
[birthdate] April 8, 1988
[school]Collegiate
[ethnicity] white
[religion] between jedi and jew
[shoe size] 10
[height] average
[hair color] brown
[eye color] brotwn
[style] professor
[fears] evil

HAVE YOU EVER....?
[cheated on someone] no
[fallen off the bed] no
[fallen for a relative] nope
[had your heart broken] please looks a few posts down
[had a dream come true] nearly
[done something you regret] yes
[cheated on a test] of course not honor code for life.

CURRENTLY...
[wearing] bits of my uniform
[listening to] bbc radio 4
[eating] ice
[feeling] sick
[located] bed
[chatting with] no one
[watching] nothing really
[should REALLY be doing] french homework

DO YOU
[brush your teeth] yes
[like anybody] please read a few posts down
[have any piercings] no
[drive] nope
[believe in santa claus] of course
[smoke] nope
[drink] tea
[have a cellphone] yes
[have a pager] nope.

FRIENDS
[who is your best] no idea
[who do you hate] sco
[who is the shyest] what does that word mean.
[who is the most talkative] me
[who laughs the most] zach
[do you hang out with the opposite sex] yep
[do you trust your friends] trust no one
[are you a good friend] yes

PERSONAL
[what do you want to be when you grow up] a lazy rich bumb
[what has been the best day of your life] may 11 1998
[what comes first in your life] naps
[do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush] once again read a few posts down
[what do you usually think of before you go to bed] ways to get out of doing work
[did you lose someone you really loved] ...
[how many times have you fallen deeply in love] no idea
[love your family] yep
[love your friends] yep
[have you fought] yep

FAVORITE
[movie] pleasntville
[store] amazon.com
[relative] grandparents
[sport to watch] lacrosse
[ice cream flavor] pumpkin
[fruit] banana
[candy] cocca
[car] I don't even have a permit
[class] art
[holiday] x-mas
[day of the week] friday at home
[color] green
[quote] a bunch

DO YOU
[like to give kisses] no idea
[like to walk in the rain] rain rules
[prefer black or blue pens] black
[like to travel] yep
[like someone] once again read a few posts down.
[sleep on your side, tummy, or back] side
[think you're attractive] not even a little bit
[have a goldfish] nope
[ever have the falling dream]only so I an fly
[have stuffed animals] hell yeah

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT...
[abortion] pro choice
[smoking] makes me barf
[suicide] ...
[summer] nakedness.
[tattoos] not so much
[piercings] yum
[make-up] dont really care anymore

THIS OR THAT
[pierced nose or tongue] nope
[single or taken] nope
[MTV or BET] it was once techtv/zdtv then g4 took it away from me
[7th heaven or dawsons creek] everwood
[sugar or salt] salt
[chocolate or flowers] chocolate
[color or black & white photos] b&w
[m&m's or skittles] m&m's
[stay up late or sleep in] stay up late
[hot or cold] hot
[sun or moon] suns
[left or right] left
[mustard or ketchup] ketchup
[spring or fall] fall
[happy or sad] sad
[wonder or amazement] wonder
[mcdonalds or burger king] qudoba
[mexican or italian food] mexican
[lights on or off] on
[candy or soda] candy
[pepsi or coke] neither
[serious or not when filling this out] very

Thursday, December 09, 2004

ipod flash

I have an idea.

What if apple made a flash player that you could use your regular ipod to load songs on to it. so you could have your ipod and use it to load songs onto the ipod flash. Say your at the office and want to jog down to starbucks. take your ipod and load your favorite jogging mix to your ipod flash.

Copyright 2004 Robert cunningham

Robert

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

word of the week

I just had a random flasback to middle school helping jordan into a dumpster.

ok back story.
In middle school the has this vido program called ms network. every week we had a program called word of the week we would put jordan into a dumpster and he would appear and give us the word of the week. We did this amany many times. We latter found out that it was prohibited to play in or around the dumpster.

Well fun times.

--Robert

Any good?

wrote this for my ap comp class.
Is it any good?

No one knows what occurs in the mind of a person with Alzheimer's. The disease can strip patients of their gifts, but it cannot quite rob them of their passions. The piano was Dr. Richard Barbee's passion, his last connection with the world of memory. Having progressively lost this gift, he now sits in a room that has been stocked with memories provided by the caretakers for people who have been robbed of their own. The tables are strewn with photographs of unknown children, wives and husbands. Dr. Richard Barbee is a husband, a father, a dentist, a pianist, and my papa. He sits at piano not knowing why or even what it is, but there is something in his eyes that says that a part of him is longing to play again.


--Robert


Thursday, December 02, 2004

romatic adventures

So it seems to be that what I really want to do in life is something that you can not really do anymore.

I want to have adventures explore ancient areas discover new and really wild things. When I look up at the night sky I see thousands of adventures waiting just waiting. All I need is a ship and a group of people with similar goal. Think about what would happen if tomorrow someone invented warp drive. A way of going faster than the speed of light. We have impulse drives in the labs right now. Those have one use in my mind shuttle craft. But we need warp light speed.

What if tomorrow a group of alien diplomats lands on the steps of congress and wants to share everything they have. In return they want are lliterature. They have all the books in there heads they really want some more stories.

I would voulnteer in a second to go up and out there. I want to see the earthrise from the moon. I want to step foot ona naother planet. I want to see other culutures.

I would to point a ship at the second star on the right and go straight on till morning. Start a colony. Discover a utopia.

We know what lies over the nezt hill. But what lies over the next nebula. What happens we you go into a black hole. That would be a hell of a thing.

But the odds of this happening are so low.
odds are I will never get to step foot on another planet.
The moon maybe. I can at least look forward to going into orbit.
Zero g sounds like so much fun.

Robert

So I have decided to post more often now

So I am going to post more now.

Various rant

So the new building is starting to grow on me but one thing really is bothersome. These cherry wood desks. We have these several hundred dollar cherry wood desk and chair sets. There nice and all but it is hard to get comfotable with them because you feel like your going to damage them some how.

The Carpert is just crazy. Something about the colours and patterns used causes it to look strange. I really wish they would change it but it is brand new and as such the odds of this happening are very low.

end rants

I wonder what will happen to these posts in ten twenty years. What will happen to my logs my random files. Will they just sit on some random server. one day soon I am going to set up a sftp server at home an load the files to it. I will also print out my posts so I can have them somewhere safe. Paper last we have papers from centuries. Magnetic media has not been around for 100 years.

ok so most of my posts are pretty bad. I think if I wrote them earlier in the night they might be better.

Well back to the slashdot and penny-arcade

Friday, November 26, 2004

Stirling you are the man

Session Start (AIM - dreamer8815:morechunks): Fri Nov 26 17:24:03 2004
[17:24:06] Dreamer8815: hi
[17:24:22] morechunks: heyyy could u hold for just a sec im helping my mom with teh computer
[17:24:35] Dreamer8815: sure
[17:24:56] Dreamer8815: if you need any help you can im me
[17:25:15] morechunks: awsome idea actually thanks man
[17:25:36] Dreamer8815: I am all ways happy to help
[17:26:55] morechunks: thanks man ill let u know
[17:27:04] Dreamer8815: ok
[17:36:25] morechunks: ]yeah okyeah so waht
[17:36:27] morechunks: s
[17:36:28] morechunks: up?
[17:36:58] Dreamer8815: nothing much
[17:37:08] morechunks: coool
[17:37:15] morechunks: was t giving fun?
[17:37:23] Dreamer8815: well one thing happened you can read about it on my blog (Link: www.omtn.com)www.omtn.com
[17:37:26] Dreamer8815: yeah it was
[17:37:30] Dreamer8815: was yours
[17:37:43] morechunks: yeahhh pretty good
[17:37:54] Dreamer8815: good to hear
[17:38:19] morechunks: i had amazeing dumoling and mashed potatoes
[17:38:22] morechunks: and then the carmel cake
[17:38:30] morechunks: was the best thing ive ever had in my life
[17:38:45] Dreamer8815: I had some amazeing stuffing
[17:38:52] Dreamer8815: like the best stuffing I had ever had
[17:38:56] Dreamer8815: and the pie my god
[17:38:57] morechunks: ooooo
[17:39:03] morechunks: awsome
[17:39:07] Dreamer8815: it was the best apple pie ever
[17:39:09] morechunks: was it pumpkin??
[17:39:12] morechunks: OOOO SNAP
[17:39:18] morechunks: yes and apple is the ebst pie anyway
[17:39:25] morechunks: well blueberrys pretty good to
[17:39:26] morechunks: but
[17:39:28] Dreamer8815: there was a pumpkin pie
[17:39:28] morechunks: awsome
[17:39:35] morechunks: but not as good as the apple?
[17:39:44] Dreamer8815: and it was nearly as good
[17:39:46] morechunks: HAHAHAHA DUDE
[17:39:51] morechunks: thats hilarious
[17:39:53] morechunks: er the part
[17:40:00] morechunks: where ur cussing in sbaccean
[17:40:13] morechunks: what os sabaccean anyway?
[17:40:40] Dreamer8815: sabaccean is race of people from the tv show farscape
[17:41:07] Dreamer8815: there sort of human but not
[17:41:25] Dreamer8815: and on the show the use the sebaccean words when they curse
[17:41:36] Dreamer8815: so that things due not get bleeped out
[17:41:40] morechunks: hahahaha dude thats funny
[17:41:49] morechunks: mmm but the rest sounds pretty stinky
[17:43:17] Dreamer8815: yeah it is
[17:43:24] morechunks: w/e
[17:43:28] morechunks: life will go on
[17:43:45] Dreamer8815: yeah be happu you have some one
[17:44:10] morechunks: and besides eleanor can be pretty munipulative at times so mabey this will jsut help u find somone whos way more deserving of u
[17:46:05] Dreamer8815: it is just her strengths servere as a good foil for my own
[17:46:12] morechunks: mmm
[17:46:34] morechunks: well im sure there is somone else waiting for you out there
[17:46:40] Dreamer8815: but the geek and the popular girl
[17:46:41] morechunks: i mean everything happens for a reason
[17:46:44] Dreamer8815: odds were low
[17:46:52] morechunks: hahaha true
[17:47:11] morechunks: well qoute "popular"
[17:47:43] morechunks: i find it ironic how most of the qoute "popular people" are hated by most
[17:48:20] Dreamer8815: it is
[17:48:31] morechunks: hahaha dude i like
[17:48:51] morechunks:
Best first date location:when I go on a dat eI will update
Best first kiss location: this quiz is biased aganist nerds


[17:48:55] morechunks: thats really funny
[17:49:43] Dreamer8815: thanks
[17:52:10] morechunks: oh snap
[17:52:18] morechunks: i think im getting a new grphics card
[17:52:21] morechunks: for kissmas
[17:53:15] Dreamer8815: sweet
[17:54:27] morechunks: aright well i gotta go
[17:54:34] morechunks: sry to here about eleanor
[17:54:36] morechunks: but im sure
[17:54:45] morechunks: its all for the better some how some way maybe
[17:54:46] morechunks: tomrow
[17:54:50] morechunks: youll meet somone
[17:54:57] morechunks: wholl flip your life upside down
[17:55:01] morechunks: itll come eventually
[17:55:03] morechunks: im sure
[17:55:29] Dreamer8815: thanks man
[17:55:29] morechunks: im gone though later on
[17:55:33] morechunks: and smile
[17:55:39] morechunks: u only live life once
[17:55:42] morechunks: ..suposedly
[17:55:47] morechunks: so dont let a girl ruin it
[17:55:49] morechunks: toodles
[17:55:51] *** morechunks signed off at Fri Nov 26 17:55:51 2004.
Session Close (morechunks): Fri Nov 26 17:55:54 2004


Striling thanks you made me feel worlds bettert

Robert

Part II of Rejection

The dream and the hope was far better than this.

I am listening to Factory Showroom by they might be giants
I was listen to that album while the event happened the actuall message of rejection was either "Never gonna give you up" by Rick Astley or "walkie talkie man" I am not sure because the logs say "never gonna give up" end at 1:49 but the message was recived at 1:49:11 and the itunes does not give the seconds. So who knows but I do know that itunes goes to the last minute i.e at 3:30:59 the song was laste played at 3:30
order of the conversation
In the Waiting by Zero 7 ended 1:45
Never Gonna Give you up by Rick astley ended 1:49
Walkie talkie man by steriogram ended 1:51
Barbie Girl by aqua ended 1:54
I just don't think I'll ever get over you by colin hay ended 2:00

fair by remy zero ended 2:03

this was a random order that I had set up on itunes. How werid is it the order that the songs played eh?

Robert

p.s the order was random I wish they might be giants and the beatles had played in there but they did not so I am listening to them know

Pardon my spelling I am really upset

Rejection

[01:49:11] el7351: ok so i just got out of a really insane, intense relationship, right? and i am REALLY not looking at the opposite way like that AT ALL for awhile, and while yes i like you as friend, i do not want to take it further

Frell
Dren
Drannit
Hezmana
Greebol
Loomas
Fahrbot
Tralk
Mivonks
Frelnik
Thoddo
Yotz

I just used every cursre word I know in Sebacean.
And that does not even begin to expres what I feel right now
hmm this works a little better

Sorrow fills the empty places....
Places that I once used to feel....
Only space separates my soul....
From the rest, I am cold...
Life is a great big stone that drags me to the grave...
In the great hands of God, I find myself a slave....
If this doesn't count as rejected....
I might as well be inspected....

god bless the internet


the whole conversation


Session Start (AIM - dreamer8815:el7351): Fri Nov 26 01:41:56 2004
[01:41:58] Dreamer8815: hi
[01:42:03] el7351: hey
[01:42:08] el7351: how are you feeling
[01:42:13] Dreamer8815: much better
[01:42:23] Dreamer8815: thank you for asking
[01:42:47] Dreamer8815: how was your t. giveing
[01:42:55] el7351: good and yours?
[01:43:09] Dreamer8815: good aswell
[01:44:00] Dreamer8815: I must admit I spent most of the day with my computer as par for the course
[01:44:10] el7351: i see
[01:45:19] Dreamer8815: but I read half of
[01:45:31] Dreamer8815: snow crash while doing it though
[01:46:13] el7351: hey robert
[01:46:20] el7351: we need to chat
[01:46:22] Dreamer8815: started ulysses and foundation
[01:47:08] Dreamer8815: ok
[01:49:11] el7351: ok so i just got out of a really insane, intense relationship, right? and i am REALLY not looking at the opposite way like that AT ALL for awhile, and while yes i like you as friend, i do not want to take it further
[01:49:34] Dreamer8815: pefectly alright
[01:50:13] el7351: thanks
[01:50:18] el7351: for understanding
[01:50:51] el7351: its just, i need a break from all of that, i abused my friends cause of that awful relationship and i need time to focus on building our friendships back up
[01:53:19] el7351: thanks man
[01:53:35] Dreamer8815: I completely argee.
[01:54:03] Dreamer8815: as would any third party observer
[01:56:19] el7351: thankyou so much
[01:57:15] Dreamer8815: no you are doing what needs to be done. no thanks is needed.
[01:57:43] Dreamer8815: one can not disagree with pure logic
[01:58:10] el7351: i guess i am glad you agree then
[01:59:08] el7351: hey, i think i am gonna go now, i am dead tired
[01:59:20] el7351: i hope you t-gives was awsome, and i'll ttyl?
[01:59:45] Dreamer8815: pefectly understandable not everyone has insomnia like I do
[02:00:20] el7351: yeah sorry, that sucks
[02:00:25] el7351: goodnight robert
[02:00:28] *** el7351 signed off at Fri Nov 26 02:00:28 2004.
Session Close (el7351): Fri Nov 26 02:00:31 2004



Robert
Watching the crush I have had since the 5th grade die.

These are the times I wish I had friends

Friday, October 08, 2004

series quiz

Name: Robert
Age: 16
Birthdate: 4-8-88
Interests: Life the universe and everthing.


(Series Two--Describe)
Your heritage: a blend of europe
Your hair: auburn
Your eyes: brown
Your fears: go insane
Your perfect pizza: pepperroines
One thing you'd like to achieve: time travel or going to the moon.

(Series Three--What is..)
Your most overused phrase on aim: "ok"
The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: iq score
Your best physical feature: eyes.
Your greatest accomplishment: 150 iq score
Thing you miss the most: my mind
Your favorite article of clothing: my pumas
Pepsi or coke: soda me you must be jokeing
McDonald's or Burger King: fast food = shit
Single or group dates: hahah I have never even been kissed let alone go on a date
Adidas or nike: puma european shoes rules
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: indian
Chocolate or vanilla: varries on time of day.


(Series four--The past)
First Kiss: yet to happen
First Boyfriend/Girlfriend: kelly kindgarden
First word: grad student
First person you had sex with: yet to happen


(Series Five--Do you...)
Smoke: Nope.
Cuss: only in alien lanuagues
Sing well: yes
Take a shower everyday: nerd takeing a shower hahhah
Have a crush(es): well maybe
Think you've been in love: possible
Want to go to college: yes
Like high school: fuck no
Want to get married: Iyes
Type w/ your fingers on the right keys: yes
Think you're attractive: no but people tell me i'm wrong


(Series Six--In the past 3 months, did/have you...)
Drank alcohol: no
Smoked: no
Done a drug: only the ones from my docter
Eaten an entire box of Oreos: yes
Been on stage: yes
Been dumped: Nope
Gone skating: lmeo. yes
Made homemade cookies: no
Been in love: I wish
Dyed your hair: no
Stolen anything: never
Had sex: no
Been Kissed: nope
Drank Coke: noe.
Kissed your mom/dad: yes
Killed anything: no


(Series Seven--Have You Ever...)
Been caught having sex: no
Been called a tease: no
Gotten beaten up: yes maybe times
Shoplifted: no
Changed who you were to fit in: never

(Series Eight--The Future)
Numbers and Names of Children: 1 ford
Describe your dream wedding: space
How do you want to die: whos says I have to do
What country would you most like to visit: anartica

(Series Nine--Opposite Sex)
Best eye color: green
Best hair color: brown /red
Short or long hair: long
Best height: my height or shorter
Best weight: whatever fits there body type
Best articles of clothing: shoes
Best first date location:when I go on a dat eI will update
Best first kiss location: this quiz is biased aganist nerds

(Series Ten--Number Of...)
Number of drugs taken illegally: o
Number of people I could trust with my life: mom and dad and all my teachers
Number of CDs that I own: 500 to six hundred
Number of piercings: o
Number of tattoos: n0
Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: apporaching 20
Number of scars on my body: 5
Number of things in my past that I regret: middle school

(Series Eleven--Right Now)
Wearing: nothing I was painting
Thinking of: eleanor
Watching: amelie
Date: october 8
Time: 11:27

(Series Twelve--Favorites)
Drink: milk
food: chicken sandwhich burgers
movie: I have a top ten list
song or band: they might be giants
Brand of shoes: merell six pairs
vehicle: bike
Animal:human
Color/s: blue green
Number: 8
Day of the week: thursday I could never get the hang of thurdays
Month: april
Time of the Day: 3 am
Pet: my sim
Cartoon: lain
Toy: my dragon dagger
TV show: Itss
Flower: sunflowers

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

note to self

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Sunday, September 05, 2004

I really need to post more

1. First name: Robert

2. Were you named after anyone? yes my grandfather (dad's)

3. Do you wish on stars?Yes.

4. Which finger is your favorite?pointer.

5. When did you last cry?the real question is what day did I not cry

6. Do you like your handwriting? no it is really bad.

7. What is your favorite lunchmeat? roast beef

8. Any bad habits? slashdot.org

9. Most embarrassing CD on the shelf? Modest mouse

10. If you were another person, would you be friends with you? yes. that is probably the reason I have very few friends.

11. Are you a daredevil? no.

12. Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell? no

13. Do looks matter? to a ceratin level.

14. Have you ever misused a word and sounded stupid? no.

15. Do you think there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow? no.

16. Do fish have feelings? no

17. Are you trendy? no. Nerd for life

18. How do you release anger? hacking

19. Where is your second home? hunters house

20. Do you trust others easily? no

21. What was your favorite toy as a child? my computer.

22. What class in school do you think is totally useless? french

23. Do you have a journal? why yes your swiming in it.

24. Do you use sarcasm a lot? yes

25. Have you ever been in a mosh pit? yes.

26. What do you look for in a boy/ girl? high iq score

27. What are your nicknames? black rob. handsome rob. burger king. cunningham.

28. Would you ever bungee jump? no

29. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? yes

30. Do you think that you are strong? well since lax season some what.

31. What's your favorite ice cream flavor? graters they have in the little cups at burgers blackberry.
32. What's your favorite color? green or blue

33. What is your least favorite food? soda

34. How many wisdom teeth do you have? zero

35. How many people have a crush on you right now? zero . and all time number zero

36. Who do you miss most right now? madeleine

36. Do you want everyone who reads this to do it too? I could care less.

37. What color pants are you wearing? khakis shorts

38. What are you listening to right now? Au contraitre. They Might be giants who else

39. What are the last four digits of your phone number?7890

40. What was the last thing you ate? something from qdoba

41. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? sky blue becasue you know it the one you are laways looking for.

42. How is the weather right now? sunny. I hate it.

43. Who is the last person you talked to on the phone? apple computer

44. First thing you notice about the opposite sex? iq.

45. How are you doing? bored

46. Favorite drink? yoohoo

51. Hair color? brown

52. Eye color? Brown

53. Do you wear contacts? no. glasses for life.

54. Siblings and their ages? ben 10
54. Favorite month? Novemeber

55. Favorite food? sushi
58. Favorite day of the year? time does not exist

59. Are you too shy to ask someone out? yes

60. Scary movies or happy endings? happy endings

61. Summer or winter? fall / spring

62. Hugs or kisses? hugs

63. Relationships or one- night stands? I have never had either.

65. Living arrangement? my room, in my parents house.Fucking suburbs.

66. What book are you reading? farenheight 451

67. Favorite board game? trival pusuit

68. What did you watch on TV last night? stargate sg-1 and farscape

69. Favorite smells? cherrywood

70. What is the first thing you thought of when you woke up this morning? fuck this is the real world not the dream.

Tuesday, July 20, 2004

Please work

testing one two three

Test

Since ecto know wants me to pay to use there software I am going to
e-mail to post until I can find an open source alternative or I find a
working serial number.


Robert


Friday, July 16, 2004

No luck

It seems someone else's story got posted to slashdot. They had some more background that I did not but the thing is I broke the story first to the page but alas. Is til got a +4 funny post so my /. karama may be recovering from my one offtopic and the post that was incorrectly modded flamebait. How is first post flame bait. Looks like some moderator wanted that post and lost it so moderated me down.

Posted this to slashdot


In now seems that Google is now offering free software on there home page. There have a link to download a new piece of software called Picasa. Picasa is a free software package that lets you organize and find pictures on your PC. It seems google is becoming more and more interested it organizing our personal data first with our e-mail now with our pictures. Could this be the sign of google finally brining there search technology to the desktop?

Hope it gets published

Thursday, July 15, 2004

Geek Test

I AM 90% GEEK!
90% GEEK
UBER GEEK! My mad skills would make Linus Torvalds shake in his boots. But I seldom, if ever, get laid. Well, there are always the web-cam girls!

Wednesday, July 07, 2004

When The Internet Goes Down

What do you do when the internet goes out.
Well today I have to find out.
My dad woke me up with the modem line in his hand.
The dsl system had switched so he need to go pick up a new one at win.net. He would drop of he old one and pick up the new one on the way to a meeting. This of course leaves me with no internet access. Till he gets back. I could use the dial up access but the problem is that I have never configured the dial-up. And all the access number are on the web. I remember one reeding an article on the screen savers when there internet went down. They all did different things. Well i going to document what I shall do on this day with out internet. Or at least till i can get some sort of net connection going.

1:30
Well I am begin with watching the movie "the saint"
2:15
Having seen this movie quite a few time I moved thought the line up
2:17
I landed on an episode of The Next Generation
The episode in which Q's powers get taken away.
Quite a good one I watched it the whole
2:40
I went to the kitchen and eat some potato salad. While watching star trek.
2:50
I returned to my room to finish of the episode
3:00
Since star trek was over I switched back to the saint. I always found the end be the best part.
3:30
Since the saint is over I start cleaning up my hard drive
4:45
I had finished cleaning out the hard drive. So i turned the tv back on and started to watch the invisable man moview
5:00
I remembered that i had yet to watch season 5 of sg-1 on dvd so I watched that till my dad gets home and I get back online.

I learned more about my self in those hours then i had in many years. I truly am addicted to the internet. I am addicted to information itself. I would flip during commercials to a news channel and not know what was going on because I had not logged on to the news sites. I had not click refresh since 3 that morning. I felt lost with out the internet.

When the internet came back on it was if a light inside me that had been put out that morning had suddenly been turned back on.

Robert

Itunes:Light & Day from the album Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind by The Polyphonic Spree

Monday, July 05, 2004

matt welsh

"...Unix, MS-DOS, and Windows NT (also known as the Good, the Bad, and the Ugly)." (By Matt Welsh)

Friday, July 02, 2004

I hate the DEA

Today I woke and I felt nothing
I was emotionally numb then
I thought of matthew and sorrow filled my mind

Later on in the day I went to the visitation.
It helped allot seeing matthew.
He seemed strangely normal. (He must just be in the stage where he just feels numb)
He wanted to go eat at the bristol.
So a group of us went to eat at the bristol.
Matthew
Sarah m
Lucy S
Kara D.
Eleanor W
Betsy H
Callie B
catrina (sp?)
and Myself

It was one of the few social gathering I have ever been too
And it was my first "dinner with friends" experience
I have to say that I enjoyed it quite much.

I know understand that perhaps sitting in ones room for hour and hour is not such a good idea.
And that the outside world can offer thing that the world inside can not

Well if everyone would upgrade to the video version of aim and let me video conference it would be different.

This world in which I live has limitless possibilities. I choose to connect to through the internet. I connect to the web and many other layers. I like to read on the news group to watch the irc chats go by. i never seem to take part. I am merely a watcher.

I am like al. from the tv show "quantum leap". I am like a hologram observing the lives of others and helping but not interacting my self. The volunteer project that I am soon going to start should allow me to help the world it a little broader way.
I shall not revel my plan just yet because I do not want it to be taken by another person.

Wednesday, June 30, 2004

It seems I am the only one who reads the morning paper

Everyone I have talked to on the net today has no idea what happened to Matthew's dad. Seems that I am the only one who found out. I assume other know and there just not on my buddy list. Well I will continue to tell those who sign on. I will be attending the visitation tomorrow to pay my respects.

I have no way to describe how I feel right now. There is a numbness and a great pain. Death is something I was just starting to grasp.

What I really wonder is how matthew is taking all of this. The death of a parent is something everyone one must face in time. But it should never happen in ones youth. At every important event in Matthew's life there will be a little bit of sorry because his father will not be there to experience it with him. And that is something that no one should ever have to experience.

Robert

I need you again blog

Death has once again struck the collegiate family. Yet this time it is not with a student but with a parent. I woke up this morning telling me that Matthew's dad was dead. She preceded to tell me that it was suicide. I went down stairs and read the obituary and the article Doctor in prescription case kills himself . I feel numb once again. Things like this should never happen. I am going to assume this is the result of depression. I had a idea once that people in court cases such as these all those involved should be required to attend therapy. So that these events never have to occur again. This also reaffirms my belief that DEA is one big bully.
How is one to handle this?
Well I have gone thought something like this once before with the death of scott's mother. At that time I still did not understand death in the least. The concept had of death was not one I understood. Now that I have come to understand death this is much harder to deal with. Good people should not have this happen to them. When so many evil people live.
I suggest all those that now matthew to attend it is just the right thing to due.

Light & Day from the album "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind" by The Polyphonic Spree

And if anyone needs the mix i created almost a year ago titled"helpful songs during death"
I can be found at the aim:Dreamer8815
and several other port along the net if you knock long enough you will find me at the source.

Tuesday, June 22, 2004

mm

To quote from The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy,

A towel is about the most massively useful thing an interstellar hitchhiker can have. Partly it has great practical value - you can wrap it around you for warmth as you bound across the cold moons of Jaglan Beta; you can lie on it on the brilliant marble-sanded beaches of Santraginus V, inhaling the heady sea vapours; you can sleep under it beneath the stars which shine soredly on the desert world of Kakrafoon; use it to sail a mini raft down the slow heavy river Moth; wet it for use in hand-to-hand-combat; wrap it round your head to ward off noxious fumes or to avoid the gaze of the Ravenous Bugblatter Beast of Traal (a mindboggingly stupid animal, it assumes that if you can't see it, it can't see you - daft as a brush, but very ravenous); you can wave your towel in emergencies as a distress signal, and of course dry yourself off with it if it still seems to be clean enough.

More importantly, a towel has immense psychological value. For some reason, if a strag (strag: non-hitch hiker) discovers that a hitchhiker has his towel with him, he will automatically assume that he is also in possession of a toothbrush, face flannel, soap, tin of biscuits, flask, compass, map, ball of string, gnat spray, wet weather gear, space suit etc., etc. Furthermore, the strag will then happily lend the hitchhiker any of these or a dozen other items that the hitchhiker might accidentally have "lost". What the strag will think is that any man who can hitch the length and breadth of the galaxy, rough it, slum it, struggle against terrible odds, win through, and still knows where his towel is is clearly a man to be reckoned with.

Friday, May 21, 2004

Slashdot: News for nerds, stuff that matters

Slashdot: News for nerds, stuff that matters: "Wait! You have not been prepared! -- Mr. Atoz, 'Tomorrow is Yesterday', stardate 3113.2 "

Monday, April 12, 2004

Apollo

There is an order of things in this universe. -- Apollo, "Who Mourns for Adonais?" stardate 3468.1

Saturday, April 03, 2004

End of Line

This blog is in response to Leo's blog posting of how is has left techtv. Leo changed my life through his work I finally discovered who I was. I discovered I was a geek. With out his work and the work of everyone at techtv and zdtv I would not be the person I am today. I have been crying on and off every since I found at. I truly can not explain what a large part they all have played in my life. All you nealson family tune into call for help leo techtv program and tss help keep them alive.

Robert

Helpful song During Death track 3
While My Guitar Gently Weeps from the album "1967-1970 (Disc 2)" by The Beatles

Friday, April 02, 2004

überChristian

a word of my own creation überChristian

Wednesday, March 31, 2004

I own a dot com

I now own omtn.com I was just looking at godaddy,com and found that it was available and I pounced.

Well I was always told when you see a four letter domain name buy it and buy now. So I did. Well browder please do not kill me for getting it. But I just had to get it. Maybe in the future it will be become a once more than never fansite but for now it will be my personal website.

Robert
Itunes is punching out
Star Wars Main Theme from the album "Star Wars Trilogy" by John Williams

"Is it really you, Fuzz, or is it Memorex, or is it radiation sickness?" -- Sonic Disruptors comics

"Is it really you, Fuzz, or is it Memorex, or is it radiation sickness?" -- Sonic Disruptors comics

Monday, March 29, 2004

K.A. Arsdall

Solutions are obvious if one only has the optical power to observe them over the horizon. -- K.A. Arsdall

Friday, March 26, 2004

I am the mother of all things, and all things should wear a sweater.

I sit here at my terminal just thinking what will I contribute to the world.
Will I just waste my time on this earth.
I just want to do something with my brain now.
I wish I had a life maybe that would make my life worth something.
I am bored with the universe once again.'

Wednesday, March 24, 2004

True Nature quiz

Your True Nature by llScorpiusll
Username
The quality that most appeals to you:Empathy
In a survival situation, you:Outsmart your attacker
Your hidden talent is:Resourcefulness
Your gift is:Vast knowledge
In groups, you:Are the center of attention
Your best quality is:Your empathic nature
Your weakness is:Your passivity
Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0!


Ok I used my unix log in name because that is my username.
I love the internet and freebsd

Monday, March 22, 2004

I eat lunch in 5 minutes

I walk over to the dining room stand in line get my food. If the line is long I will go get pasta and a milk sit down and wait for line to lighten up. Once I have gotten food I sit at my regular table {the one just left of the microwave}. I sit facing the window in the second chair from the end. Except when someone gets to my table first I to to the mirror opposite of it.

I eat my food alone. When someone comes to sit on occasion I talk to them. But most days are spent eating alone staring out the window. Not much to look at but it is better then having to sit in with people that are so artificial.

I made a choice a long time ago never to conform to a specific group. Never to join a click {I just do not believe in them}. I am a geek plain and simple. If you can not accept this fact sorry I will not change.

The problem is there are very few non conformists in the world. Those that refuse to accept society rules and be there own person. Well my grade is extra low I am the only geek.

This must be some sort of galactic punishment for something I did in a previous lifetime. Because going throughout middle school which is already a hell for geeks with out another geek is indescribable.

Well I do not want to drag you all into my tube of self pitty. But I still carry those emotional scares from that time in my life.

All I can say is my revenge shall be that i will put lock in codes so that all those that made fun of my skill in computers. When they put there name in for registration it will have some witty dialogue. THen a phone number they must dial and have them come see me in person and apologize for what they did before they can use the software.

Robert
Do You Realize? from the album "Yoshimi Battles The Pink Robots" by The Flaming Lips

Sunday, March 21, 2004

Poll Firsts

First job: Code Monkey
First screen name: Well my first logon was omega
First funeral: Brittiney's
First pet: Tantra
First piercing/tattoo: none
First credit card: Visa Buxx
First enemy: Philip Ardey


LASTS
Last car ride: dad from movie
Last library book checked out: greatest military blunders oops it is late
Last movie watched: Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
Last beverage drank:Gatorade
Last food consumed: bread
Last phone call: Jackie
Last time showered:6pm
Last CD played: songs: Some ataris cd in cambells cars
Last annoyance: Time
Last soda drank: I do not drink soft drinks



//10 songs you've been listening a lot to lately:
1- Pictures of you- the cure
2- Do You Realize? -flaming lips
3- I Fought the law-Green day
4-Bohemian RHapsody-Queen
5- Princes of the universe-Queen
6-Mr.Roboto-styx
7-Undone-Weezer
8-Mr.Blue SKy-E.L.O
9-Mink Car-T.M.B.G
10-THey'll need a Crane-Beatles



//09 things you look forward to:
1) Spring Break
2) summer
3) Learning to code all over again
4) driving
5) my birth day
6) college
7) stargate atlantis
8) Jersey girl march 26
9) stargetes next season

//8 things you like to wear:
1) thinkgeek shirts
2) pummas
3) khakies
4)ipod
5) my tweed jacket
6) my zdtv lanuch team jacket
7) glasses
8) my mock trial t-shirt

//07 things that annoy you:
Omitting due to the fact that I am really tired.

//06 things you say most days:
1) fsck it
2) wrong!
3) bol
4) #!
5) seriously
6) later days

//05 things you do everyday:
1) Code
2)Check slashdot
3) listen to music
4)read
5) think about time

//04 people you want to spend more time with:
Omitting due to the fact that I am really tired.

//03 movies you could watch over and over again:
1) Real Genius
2) Stargate
3) Tron

//02 of your favorite songs at the moment:
1) Mr Blue Sky
2) Do you realize?


//01 person you could spend the rest of your life with:
My computer is the one that cares about me enough to spend the rest of my life with me.

Thursday, March 18, 2004

robert

N200403180816101168

Nietzsche

We have art that we do not die of the truth. -- Nietzsche

Monday, March 15, 2004

Larry Wall

I'm sure that that could be indented more readably, but I'm scared of the awk parser. -- Larry Wall in <6849@jpl-devvax.JPL.NASA.GOV>

Wednesday, March 10, 2004

The nick quiz

ok I took the nick quiz again thinking a little more about my answers and I get
HASH(0x82d037c)
You are YOU CAN'T DO THAT ON TELEVISION.
Sometimes, you wonder why you couldn't just be
Canadian. Some people say you are weird. You
have an interesting sense of humor and a
meaningless life. But, you're nearly Canadian,
so did you expect better?


Which old school Nickelodeon show are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

I really really liked this show. Man nick used to be one kick ass network what ever happened to it. Oh! yeah Viacom should out and became all lame. Remember the old MTV back when it was worth watching.

I quote star trek 3 to show my sentiment "Kahnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!!!!!!"

Later days
Robert

Music currently dancing around to
Princes of the Universe from the album "A Kind of Magic" by Queen

Monday, March 08, 2004

/.

Linux: because a PC is a terrible thing to waste -- ksh@cis.ufl.edu put this on Tshirts in '93

quiz 2

HASH(0x8a4f0c0)
You are WILD AND CRAZY KIDS. You couldn't get
through life without a little fun... or a neon
colored t-shirt. You are a team player and
really into Omar Gooding. GO YOU!


Which old school Nickelodeon show are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

quiz animal

uni
You are Form 3, Unicorn: The Innocent.

"And The Unicorn knew she wasn't meant to
go into the Dark Wood. Disregarding the advice
given to her by the spirits, Unicorn went
inside and bled silver blood.. For her
misdeed, the world knew evil."


Some examples of the Unicorn Form are Eve
(Christian) and Pandora (Greek).
The Unicorn is associated with the concept of
innocence, the number 3, and the element of
water.
Her sign is the twilight sun.

As a member of Form 3, you are a curious
individual. You are drawn to new things and
become fascinated with ideas you've never come
in contact with before. Some people may say
you are too nosey, but it's only because you
like getting to the bottom of things and
solving them. Unicorns are the best friends to
have because they are inquisitive.


Which Mythological Form Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

Wednesday, March 03, 2004

slashdot quotes rule

Quote I found on slash dot

Sometimes a feeling is all we humans have to go on. -- Kirk, "A Taste of Armageddon", stardate 3193.9

Yet another Poll

Wish on stars?:Yes
First crush: You thinkI would let that get onto the net hahah
Single or attached?: single.
Do you believe in love at first sight?: yes
Do you believe in "the one?": I do
Favorite place to be kissed?: Never been kissed.
First Kiss:Never been kissed.
Are you a tease?: no
Bought: Undone (The Sweater Song) from iTunes Music Store
Ate & Drank: Double pack of cup of soup
Gloves or mittens: gloves.
This or that: this.
Hugged: My mom when I said I could not go to school today.
Instant messaged: Madeleine Lambert
Been in a fight? I rather not answer that question.
Your bedroom like?: Messy.
What is your biggest fear?: schizophrenia.
What feature are you most insecure about?: my thighs
Spontaneous or plain?: plain.
Are you happy with your given name?: yes
Places have you lived in (for over 3 months)?: louisville
Countries have you been to?: USA, canada, France
Jobs you have held?: 1 my consulting job. 42 bucks an hour beat that.
Years of school have you attended?: Sophomore in high school you do the math
did/do you have braces?: Nope
who's your favorite teacher?: Calerwood=God
what is your favorite dream?: Winning the fields metal
do you believe in ghosts?: yes
If I were a day of the week I would be: Friday. Can we say Sci-Fi
If I were a time of day I would be: 12:00 pm

Well this is a sick day. My stomach still is rout with discomfort. And my head feels like it is going to explode.
I had a strange dream last night. I was in school in a room that was set up differently then any room at school. Travis was the teacher. We were talking about copy right law. Then mrs, Harrison came in saying i need to do something in the light. I said I have not been out in the sun for more then a hour in 12 months. Showed my skin and how it was weird from sun exposer.
Then I woke up. to a phone call.

My god so many people call this house during the day. I almost unplugged the phone. My dad changed the phone in the guest room. So it sounds like the one from the matrix. I pick it up and think I am going to be unplugged.

Tuesday, March 02, 2004

A note to history

I went home sick on monday.
And stayed home sick on tuesday.
Just wanted history to remember that

Why I will not become a lawyer because there is a chance I would have to work for litigious bastards

Just doing my part in the google bombing

Robert

If I were a book




You're Ulysses!

by James Joyce

Most people are convinced that you don't make any sense, but compared
to what else you could say, what you're saying now makes tons of sense. What people do
understand about you is your vulgarity, which has convinced people that you are at once
brilliant and repugnant. Meanwhile you are content to wander around aimlessly, taking in
the sights and sounds of the city. What you see is vast, almost limitless, and brings you
additional fame. When no one is looking, you dream of being a Greek folk hero.



Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.

Saturday, February 28, 2004

We are victories

Well after waking up from my 4 hour nap. I walk over to my phone and see I have voice mail messages. So I call me voice mail. There are a 6 messages. 5 are from dad saying that he is at school. Ok so I delete those then I get to number 6.

It is hawkines ever so non gracefully saying "hey we won! so um we are going to frankfurt........"I recored to my phone to keep forever now where is my bluetooth adapter.

Ok now my mood is stellar I listening to "Princes of the Universe" which is the theme song to HIghlander. And Just feeling great. Nothing can top this feeling. After having the pains of defeat from last year. I have this.

We triumph over KCD and after taking there quickening moved on toward St. X.THen we defeated them. It was great we have defeated the rival school which gets us major points at school.

Most of all we get to go to state. Something we have not done in a while. So we get to do that. This feeling is like no other. I highly recommend the next time you do something big geting the song "Princess of the Universe" by queen and trust me you will be carried to the next level.

Ok I have to go fun around my yard pretending to be Ducan McLoud "sp" from Highlander. Ah.. that is one really good show.

Well I have to use this feeling while I have it.


In the end there can be only one.
Robert

iTunes is playing what else
Princes of the Universe from the album "A Kind of Magic" by Queen

Tuesday, February 24, 2004

Message board

Well I lost some geek point and set up a free message board
http://b4.boards2go.com/boards/board.cgi?user=robertcu
yeah I should have had coded a php board.
But All my web space does not allow php or perl.
I could set it up on a linux box in my room
But you know, I have a fear of being /.doting

SIck Days' blow
Robert

Monday, February 23, 2004

There are just some songs...

That make you feel a certain way. The songs themselves serve as an interjection into your mind. The song I am thinking of right now is Across The Universe from the album "1967-1970 (Disc 2)" by The Beatles
When ever I get really really calm I get covered in goose bumps and a chill runs down my spine.

I would just like to note. Who ever came up with "Let it Be... Naked" was fucking stoned out of there mind. The totally fucked up Across The Universe. It just does not sound right it is not the song that we all grew up with. It is not the song that changed our lives. This is like saying here is the pre alpha version of the software it is just like it came of the programmers desk. Well I do not care. I want the finale release. I should go check to make sure there still sell the regular the Let it Ve. I only have it on vinyl and cassette. If not to some p2p to get it a nice Digital copy. Or to ebay. They did this with the Anthology series and it was fine we all knew these were rough cuts.

My a big fear is some kid somewhere is going to listen to Let it Be...Naked and not feel what hey would feel if they listened to the proper version .

God Bless the Internet
Robert

Insomnia

Well it decided to strike tonight. When this happens I usually have a bunch of day dreams.

But since I can not sleep top ten songs in iTunes some of these are rather sad but they are what they are
1.Kiss me-Sixpence no the Richer 153 times
2.Mr.Blue SKy-E.L.O 100 times
3.Kiss me son of god-they might me giants 62 times
4.Pencil Rain-they might be giants 48 times
5.They'll need a crane-they might be giants 48 times
6.Theme from flood-they might be giants 46 times
7.Mink car-they might be giants 46 times
8.Number one-Chaz Jankel 43 times
9.Good Night-The beatles 41 times
10. Come one-Dexy's Midnight Runners 40 times

Many are more desireving to be on this list but my old ipod did not sync to itunes number of times played. My new one does so this should change it a few weeks

I can't sleep! :(
Robert

42

Many of you know how strong the number 42 is in my life. 42 is the number used in Douglas Adams novels as the meaning of life, the universe, and everything.
Well today I found something very very very eerie.

I was looking around the internet and found this.
Every person at legacy.com is given a unique id number.
Brittiney's id number is 1421181.
I am the sponsor for the guest book there. I check by every so often and I just noticed that the number was in the url. I then looked around at the was the number to associate anything there with her.

To make it even eerier, eight is my favorite number.

I know that these numbers are given at random but it still seem eerie.

Looking for Truth and Beauty,
Robert

Sunday, February 22, 2004

aim

AIM IM with Madeleine Lambert
10:38 PM
Robert: Greetings program
10:40 PM
Robert : that is all we are you know.
Robert : programms
Robert : very complex programs
Robert : hardwired into a biological machine
10:45 PM
Robert : running around in a world not under our control
Madeleine Lambert: All I really, really want is you. Don't you get it?
Robert : Could we be under some sort of test
Robert : What happens if we are failing this test.
Robert : What if the punishment is humanity is blinked out of existence?
10:50 PM
Robert : What if there is some like picrad being judged by by something like Q.?What if that person fails?
Robert : these are the questions that keep me up at night

The magic of Bol

What is bol?
It functions as an interjection. Such as used in conversation just as bol. Similar to w00t.
Yet is added to a word pre-fix is only at the end. like showerbol
Yet it seems to also function like tense change because sometime when you add it to a word you drop the end of the base such as brisbol.

The mystery of bol.
We know who created it Elizabeth Post.
I added all the grammatical idea.
And we all shall spread the word of bol

Bol
Robert

Funny quote

One thing kids like is to be tricked. For instance, I was going to take my little nephew to DisneyLand, but instead I drove him to an old burned-out warehouse. "Oh, no," I said, "DisneyLand burned down." He cried and cried, but I think that deep down he thought it was a pretty good joke. I started to drive over to the real DisneyLand, but it was getting pretty late.
(Jack Handey)

Funny quote I never want to loose

Friday, February 20, 2004

helpful song during death Playlist

On september 22 of last year I began keeping track of the song I listen to during the time of death. I have kept this list to my self. But it is titme to set it free upon the world. Maybe it can help you liked it helped me.
http://homepage.mac.com/robertcunningham/FileSharing7.html
I have put it in the text file and in a easier to navigate excel file.
All those that would like to perchance listen to it. Please just ask.


Tears still falling from face
Robert





"I do not say i will burn a copy becasue that would show intent to break the DMCA but that does not mean I will not burn a cd of it for you if you ask. "

They Killed Janet

On tonight's episode of Stargate Sg-1 they killed the character Dr. Janet Frasier. I have been watching this show for 7 years. That is about half of my life so far. When they announced she was one that died I cried. At the memorial seen I cried. When we were at the the house of senior airman wells and we found out he named his daughter Janet I cried.

I have spent every friday night either in my room or my living room watching this show. It means alot to me. Janet was one of my favorite characters. Why in the hell did we not send her to the Tok'ra or the Asgard or the Nox.I know we already played the character dies and we bring him back thing. But it was Dr.Fraiser. She saved everyone.

And what is going to happen to Cassie the adopted daughter of Janet. Her real parents were already killed by the Gou'ld. Now janet, who is going to take care of her.

Who is going to replace her?
The base needs a doctor. Can anyone fill doc fraisers shoes.


This episode brought all the pain back from my real world loss. I am going to link back to those blog entries because it just hurts too much to talk about it now.
This is the month it all happened
http://geekbook.blogspot.com/2003_09_01_geekbook_archive.html

Tears dripping on my keyboard
Robert

Thursday, February 19, 2004

ahoy!

Hi how you all doing?
I have not had a chance to blog in a while my other quest have taken more time then expected.
Lax practice started two days ago.
If you look up hardcore in the dictionary. You will find a picture of coach smith. He will lead us to victory I can see it.

But I got I chat av 2.1 beta working I had to put my self in a dmz zone for it to work thought. If anyone has any better ideas they would be much appreciated.

But back to me getting ichat av working. I got it working with Robby Linker. It was so cool because it was like he was right there. It sounded so real. And the video quality was great. I played Mr.Roboto over ichat av thats right RIAA I played it through the internet.

I also got it to work bit posto but audio did not work. So bring forth the cell phones. It is really cool to be able to do this sort of thing.

I have more faith that apple has the best programmers in the worl. And they are debt free.

Robert

Saturday, February 14, 2004

ok


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Top Ten Sites

Thought I would update the top ten sites list from Camnio.
In no particular order
1.Slashdot
2. Ask Slashdot
3.Slashdot Apple
4. Hiptop Forums
5.Google
6.Leoville
7.My router
8.MacCentral
9.Mac in Touch
10.Elizabeth Post's Easyjournal

Well those are them

Robert

slashdot quote

if (argc > 1 && strcmp(argv[1], "-advice") == 0) { printf("Don't Panic!\n"); exit(42); } (Arnold Robbins in the LJ of February '95, describing RCS)

Super Powers

If you could be given any super power featured in work of Science fiction{basically anything).

Would be it be super speed like The FLash.
Super strength like the hulk.
A whole bunch of super power like superman.
Bird wing like Hawkman.
Telepathy lie Tuvok of star trek.
Immortally like McCloud of Highlander.
a human upgrade like in Jake 2.0
The ability to become out of phase like in x-men.
The powers of a spider like Spider man.
Or be like Dr. Daniel Jackson who ascended to a higher plain of existence.

I would want to be ascended. Because then you know everything and cans till come and talk with people. The biggest punishment is that you would not be able to interfere with those you knew.

Well thats all for now fokes.

But one last thing. Most trial Rules we beat the pants off Trinity.
What a way to spend your saturday mornings.

Hey anyone want to do something. I am bored . You know how to get to me.
If you do not I am listed in the phone book.

Robert

Friday, February 13, 2004

If you were an immortal

If you were an immortal. What would you spend your time doing? Know that it was impossible for you to die. Know that what ever you did you would be alright.

That you would have see the end result of everything.
Have time to do anything and everything you ever wanted to do.

I would spend my time learning every language on earth. So I could read every book ever written. Thus knowing everything there is to know. I would go on quiz show to make a whole load of money to supply my next expense.

Building a time machine. Because what is the fun of living forever if you can not go look back to before you were made immortal. My first trip would be far int to the future to get a really cool form transpiration with cloaking and transporter and just in case a universal translator. Then it would be back to the past.

I first would go back and live in ancient greece and rome. Marvel upon these ancient lands. Watch the first production all the great masters plays. Meet the original philosophers. Thus learn what was forgotten by time. All the time writing it down. Next to the egyptian see the pyramids before they were destroyed by thieves. Then to china then to japan. Tour all the sites of the ancient world. See the seven wonders of the world.

Watch the beginnings of the current world religions. Ask the questions which needed to be answered by there creators.

Then to the renaissance live throughout all that and grab all the missing works of this time.

Then I was back at point where I became immortal. I would go back to beginning of time and record it on film.

then I would go back to just after I used my time machine adn live out the rest of time.

Robert
Itunes is playing
Hey Jude from the album "1" by The Beatles

Tv is playing
Highlander

Sick Day

There is something strange about a sick day.
On these days I am given my power.
The power of pure freedom.
No one to tell me what to do and where to go.
But of course I am stuck in bed.
But knowing the power is there gives me true happiness.

Been having a weird dream lately. Receive a human heart in a walgreens. You know the ones they give you your meds in. I freaks me out to I hit in with a hammer and try to destroy in over and over again. Of course I am home alone coding when it comes. When my dad gets home I wake up. What this means when my dad gets home from Chicago I will ask him

Let me put a myth to bed. YOU CAN READ IN YOUR SLEEP. I read lots of text in my sleep. Maybe your just stupid and your dream contain no words for you to read.

Valentines day is tomorrow. What will I be doing. MOCK TRIAL. Then Nothing finding plans for a betatron. I wish I had a girlfriend. Lucky bastards who have them.

I bet Darl McBride has one. By the way he is the CEO of SCO a.k.a Litigious bastards.

Well I need to see some movies so i will spend my weekend at the movies theater.

I hate Litigious bastards
Robert

Thursday, February 12, 2004

What is your truly original idea

I must find it now. Prove to the world how smart I am. Show them my genius. What if I pick the wrong field. What if I end up in a field where i never get my truly original idea. ANd if I had only checked the other box I would have the noble. Like wise what if einstein had decided to go out drinking every night we would have all lost something. In my dreams I see equations on big sheet of tile. {for those that do not know I like to do complex math on tiled floor and stand above it to look for the patterns} But I always wake up before I am able to read the proof statement. I think it has to do with unity because I see that I refer to gravity the strong and weak forces and gravity all in the equation. And I think what looks like a strange attempt at explaining electromagnetism.

Will this be my truly original idea?

What Will I do to change the world?
Will I be happy in my Life?
Will I get to follow my dreams?

Will I change the world?

What will I do with my time here?

Robert


Wednesday, February 11, 2004

The World

did you ever wish you lived in a world not dominated by greed and hate. But by love and happiness. A world with out crime? A world without pain?A world where you would fell safe where ever you went. Where everyone got to pursue there dreams?

This is the world the geeks tried to create. The internet was this world. everything was shared everyone was happy. There was but one flaw. The flaw lied in the real world. The second someone thought I could get rich of this. The world began to crumble. But then a new force arose. The geeks reused to let there world be taken over by these litigious bastards. They fought back with vengeance. And for a time a balance had come over the world.

Big brother had come around and nice and supporting. The other evil empire was shitting its pants about how much many they had. But then the litigious bastards started to run out of money so they started doing what they do best lie.

These litigious bastards this time went under the flag of SCO. They had bought the rights to the unix code. They went and say how this made them very little money because of a little thing called Linux. They said hmm we should sue linux and get money because the must have stolen our code. Someone told them that Linux was owned by no one it belonged to the world. So they looked at big brother. Hmm there using linux. Lets sue them. And thats what they did. In a hope to be bought out and make money.

they forgot about one thing evidence. They showed some "evidence" at conference for there sales people. Well what they showed was lies. The code they showed was opens sourced a long time ago.

they also forgot about geeks. They were pissed once more. they used there powers again to fight back against SCO. ever time something was realized they took it and found all flaws which was all of it. A few evil geeks used this time to get a virus or two out and deflect it true purpose by having ddos attack against sco and the second evil empire. We all had a good laugh about that.

This saga has yet to end...

Robert

I want out

I want out of the game. I want out of the program. Logout. ctrl-alt-del. apple-option-power. Ctrl x. Something as twisted as our universe must be the creation of something as a joke.

Could we all be one big simulation in a ancient races computer. Well if so i am user bow before me. I wish to send signal 25{this is the end process signal for a terminal in unix}

There must be a way. We know that time is non-linear. How are we to know were are all just stuck. Maybe we all have learned helpless the options are right in front of us and we can not see them.

We are machines. Guess what the human body is a machine just a biological one. the brain will be reproduced in a digital realm. And as soon as it does we are all screwed. in that instant the computers will be smarter then us and we are all fucked. We can have a limit capacity were computers have unlimited possibilities.

And let me end this phrase once an for all everything is not possible. there are things that are impossible. Just deal with it.

I missed my nap.

In the event if my death everything is in my Digital world. Look in my apple ibook or my firewire hard drives . Look hard and I live in hear like spock in wrath of kane i have put myself in here. Make sure to look at my drafts in kung-log.

Well i must now sleep. Hopeing that when I wake up the world will have changed. Run debugger god.

Robert

Tuesday, February 10, 2004

Secret to Life

Naps.
Napping is awesome.
Who said you should stop taking naps in the first grade.
There idiots naps rule.
New phrase. "Nap the Planet" Copyright 2004 Robert Cunningham

To nap.
Then to the archives. {I love saying that}

Robert

Itunes is playing
In Memory Of Joe Carter from the album "I Leave Town Tomorrow." by Once More Than Never

Monday, February 09, 2004

Video Chat

Been trying to get video chat working with browder for like half an hour. Stupid ichat beta. I paid good money for panther this should already have been implemented. But since I know no one that has ichat av i can not tell one whose end the problem is on. Bullocks. Everyone needs broadband and to upgrade to aim 5.5 right now.

everyones computer I set up from now on is going to have aim 5.5.

Could Steve Jobs be the second coming and Bill Bates is the antichrist
Robert

The End?

What lies beyond?
What happens when something goes into a black hole?
What is on the other side?
What happens when we die?
What if we are all wrong.
Every civilization thought there religion was the right one.
What makes us right?
No one alive has any first hand experience?
I want to believe.
I really do.
If I can find the answers to the really big problems.
Maybe then I will know.
I have ideas rather then beliefs
You can change ideas they can evolve.
Beliefs. People will kill over there beliefs.
Since when it is ok to kill in the name of god.


I came up with a thesis about religion and how it applies to the rules of software.
I am going to make a separate entry on this.
It is a little complex and I needed to add a creative commons license for this site so no one steals it.

Eating alone at lunch
Robert





What is your truly original idea

I must find it now. Prove to the world how smart I am. Show them my genius. What if I pick the wrong field. What if I end up in a field where i never get my truly original idea. ANd if I had only checked the other box I would have the noble. Like wise what if einstein had decided to go out drinking every night we would have all lost something. In my dreams I see equations on big sheet of tile. {for those that do not know I like to do complex math on tiled floor and stand above it to look for the patterns} But I always wake up before I am able to read the proof statement. I think it has to do with unity because I see that I refer to gravity the strong and weak forces and gravity all in the equation. And I think what looks like a strange attempt at explaining electromagnetism. But I can not make sense of it. I just have not learned enough to do that level of math in the real world. Because when i am dreaming I can do it. But when I am awake I get nervous and can not find the answer.

Not having the answers scares me.

What happens if I fall into mediocrity? What if I can never show the world my genius?

Well the only way i can prevent my fears is to learn more and that it what I shall do.

Robert

Sunday, February 08, 2004

Rehash

This is a rehash of an previous entry but who cares.

If life had a reset button would you press it?

You would have memory of everything from the time before you pressed the button. Are you willing to give up all the good things that happened in life to get rid of your mistakes. We learn from our mistakes, Well since you have learned from it would you undo it. Some of my biggest mistakes have allowed me to have some of my most important memories.

But also remember you would have the opportunity to prevent the death of others. You knew how and when the died so you could stop it. But would you. What gives you the right to mess with density how do you know what changed because of the death. Say you save some who died but because of there death an investigation which prevented the death of countless others.

Time paradox is something I like to tool around with.

If I had access to a reset button for life I would want a backup of my life just before I pressed the button so I could bounce back.

What would you do? How would you change your life. I have a comment system so use it is was a pain to set it up. I had to use javascript ugh.

America sucks I want to be British
Robert

P.S. Knowledge is Power. Power Corrupts Study Hard Be Evil.
P.S.S Next time someone tells you to study hard give them that line.
P.S.S.S Puma's Rule

Saturday, February 07, 2004

No wrath like a geek scorned

There is a saying similar to this but I think this on is better. But think about it. Geeks can do far more damage when you piss them off. The world runs off computers and geeks control that world.

I wonder what would happened if one day all the geeks of the world decided to go on strike. Think of it all geeks shutdown there works. Lets see what would happened. All nuclear plants shutdown. Heck the power grid. The phone system. The internet. all designed by geeks. The television system. Satellites. The stock markets servers shutdown. All geeks walk out side and demand an apology from the world. It would be great. Then the world would finally realize we are important. If we were gone people would care. We would raise our flag a towel to be more precise and conquer the world. Or leaders would rise and control all. Think Steve Jobs and Bill Gates president. Linus was not born in the us so he would rule europe. Then we would get some really top notch programmers to run asia. Australia would be run by peter Jackson II know he from new zealand but who cares. Then other rulers would be chosen over time by secure electronic voting. But there would be a rule you must be a geek. Proving your geek test would be done by the high council of geeks.

But this will never be because we are the meek. But or day will come. Note to self check to see if it actually could be geek.

"You are either going to be the next bill gates or a homeless bum ..." - John Speed

Robert

Itunes Music Store

This just rocks. I surfing the web and come across the Eternal Sunshine of the
Spotless Mind trailer. I like the muisc and what do I do. I type the info I have into google "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind+trailer+muisc" and boom I get the track Mr.Blue Sky. I open up itunes and boom I have the song. Well I like that so hell I buy the whole album. In a few minutes I have it sync to my ipod. This is something I could never do with a cd. I would have to wait until morning to to get the cd. Then rip and then sync. BUt no thanks to the internet all is done at 2 in the morning. I love APPLE. My life would be perfect if only Apple would release a pda. And a digital camera.Or a portable video player. Oh what I would give for a internship in apples r&d department. TO get to see what they are working on. I can only imagine. Well I can guess. I think that the two anniversary macintosh will be the same shape as the original but will run os x. It will be apples media computer. All your iLife data will flow into it. But maybe something better.

All I can say is APPLE is the best company ever.

Howdy

My weekend begins and thus begins my "fun work". These are the things
I do that I never have time to complete in the week. Like reading my quantum physics books. But all with out leaving my the compound. Damn being a geek really sucks at my school {See previous entries}. You know I do not share everything I feel with this blog there are some thoughts I would love to free and tell the world. Yet my guess is if I did I would be disappointed with the results. I am very displeased with societies rules. At least orwells prophecy was not completely realized. Where love is forbidden.

Why can't the real world be like the digital one? Where if you want to say something you do. Instant idea broadcast that is what the digital has given us. You have an idea and with in seconds in can be know across the world. The best part it is self policed. At least that was the intent for the internet a completly open world where human knowledge belonged to the world. Then big business came and tried to profit from our world. Ok we made some money to . But a store was not what they did wrong. But when they started to make you pay for the information and broke our rules. Well then we struck back. We created the system. They thought they could block us from the information. They were wrong.

But one more thing. No I am not going to pull a Steve Jobs and show the really cool this at the end of the keynote. I am still not ready to. Sorry. All the the other times I have let my feelings out they turned out to bite me in the ass. "See my parents"

I am going to make prediction I will never have a date for prom. I will go one step father then that I will never have a date in high school. Sadly I know this to be true. But if given the opportunity to have a date I would say yes. Yet it is the risk of rejection that is my biggest obstacle.

Here is another question is better to have the feeling trapped inside or tell the person of which the concern and have them obliterated. If anyone says "it is better to have loved and lost then never to have loved" I will tear you apart my my bear hands or vicious rhetoric. #comments# That line does not fit there well I have dyeing to use it none the less #/comment#

Well thats all for now
Robert

P.S time travel is possible and there are time travelers among use. Why do you think reality t.v. has such good rating it historians from the future tying to figure it out.

Friday, February 06, 2004

What If?

What if? When you woke up this morning God and the megatron"i.e the voice of god" was standing at your bed and the megatron said "you may ask one question and my friend here god will tell me the answer and i will give it to you plain and simple or complex if you like and your are allowed one follow up question and we will not say no to any question" the megatron also says "You have all of time to answer we took the opportunity to freeze time outside this room"

What would you ask. I might ask "Will you please write out a unified field theory here on this this computer" Follow up question "Will you please write a proof for the theory"

Think of it. If this were to happen I would have in my hand a theory of everything. ANd sinceI have a cam in connected to my computer triggered by remote I would have a visual representation of god.

Do you know what this would mean to the scientific community by having this we as a race would be saved because at the end of the universe we would be able to create a baby universe and everything would not end.

What would your question be?

I know through prayer we can talk whenever but these one way conversations leave me wanting more.

I wonder if anyone reads this?
I know a few people have stoped by from time to time leave comments.
But I want to know are there any hardcore readers outhere that check this every ten minitues I so I would be happy to send you draft before they go out.

I would like everyone outhere to go and upgrade aim so that I can talk to you all with audio and video. Aol finally got arounf to ueing ichats tech into the regular client.

Forever behind a keyboard
Robert

What would you do?

What if you where given the option of relieving the last 5 years of your life. Knowing what you know now would you make the same decisions you did the first time. Would you be like to Dr. Sam Becket and right what once when wrong. If given this option I would take it knowing what I know know. I would go back prevent it all. I could change one thing and my life as I know it would disappear.

But think about would you be willing to give up all the good things in your life to have the bad never happen? Would the end result be better? But also remember that your life effects the lives of others. What gives you the right to change other people futures. #side-thought# What fun time paradox is #/side-thought#. But in all seriousness if the theory of time where when you can travel back and change the course of history what would you tell-yourself. Would you warn them of mistakes you had made. Well all have things we wish had never happened.

I change my mind if someone offered me this I would beat them senseless and steal there time travel machine. Haaahhaaa. Think what you could do if given control of a time machine. You could go forward in time get your graded test and go back before the test and go over what you had missed. You could keep trying a approach on doing something. You could live forever you would have the ultimate gift the time. Jump into the future and find out how you die so you would know that nothings else you did would kill you.

You could jump through time and stop Einstein's death by using medical technology of the future. Cure Dr.Hawking of his disease. OMG you could have Kaku Einstein Newton Hawking Nash all in one room at there prime working on find a unified filed theory. Holy shit that would be assume.

The possibility of having a time machine are endless as long as they are in the right hands. Like mine. I would not allow it to be used by anyone with me being at the controls because then they could take it from me.

I hope you enjoyed peering into my mind for the this 10 minutes we shared together. Think what it must like to live in this mind all day long.

The man with no life
Robert

Monday, February 02, 2004

Reading

I have so many books I have been wanting to read I have them all. But there not enough hours in the day for me to read them. I want to read them all. Thats something I could do develop a computer interface into the brain to allow a chip to with every book written to be installed into the memory centers of the brain. Heres how it might work. I would bridge a synapse to it so that when you thought of a certain thing the chip would be activated. then it would be tied into the speak and visually centers for output of the data. Then a tie would be into the motor centers for control of the information. This would take so much more effort then just to have a pda with the same chip. Just with a different interface. But sadly this will never be.

I want more hours in the day
Robert

Skipping this step

I read how some people think that high school was the best part of there life. Well I think it is the least favorite time in my life. I want to skip to grad school. Somehow have all the knowledge implanted into my brain. To be the same person yet with the knowledge of the next 6 years agggh. This sucks I was told I would be allowed to study what I wanted into college. Yet all the stuff I want to study is really high level and as such in I have to what till grad school. Here is what I except to have at least one Ph.D. in quantum physics and another in medicine. I need to have three to Ph.D to out do my parents combined. When I come back to my reniuon with my skin snow white because I will have never left the lab. My brother will probably have gotten married and have a child before I have even had a girlfriend. Sad thing is this I know will come true. I want to know how this will al turn out right now. Once again a time machine would be great right about now.

They always make movies about some popular person jump to there future. Why not make a movie where the unpopular geek jumps ahead into the future. Hmmm.. i think this will be my summer project. Make a time travel movie.

I know I am just going to solve one important proof. That might let me leap ahead to grad school prove to them i can do the sums.


Skipping into the future
Robert

The Lab of Dreams

I once designed my perfect lab space. It had the largest elliptical particle accelerator. A fusion reactor a fission reactor. A clean room. A huge amount of supplies. I would have a 10 megawatt laser. It would have the worlds fast supercomputer. I would also want to have a life-size version of one of those mirror things wear you put something in it and it appears like it is sitting on it but is actually inside. I would also have all the tools I could ever need. THere would be a hug libreay full of ever science book ever written every work of literate would be there. Then I would want to have a full genetics lab. It would be the lab of dreams. It would be like the field of dreams but instead of baseball it would be for science. Think of it getting to watch Einstein and Newton finishing the unsolved work. OMG that would be the best thing ever. But unless I figure out time travel or figure out a way to travel between parallel universes. I just hope that someone has Einstein DNA on file so we can clone him. I know that he will not have all the experiences of einstein yet he would have the raw talent.

Designing for a time machine
Robert

P.S Anyone have a super string I can borrow. Or some anit-matter would be great leave your e-mail via the comments and I have you ship it to me.

Sunday, February 01, 2004

Hearing damage

Well something seems to be wrong with my ears. Last night I left my ipod repeating the same song forever and the sleep timer I set up undone during a rest . And when I played that song and all other songs. Non of them sounded right. There where frequencies i was able to hear. Through out the day they started to come back but I am still worried that because it is not all back yet. I think will be fine and just need to rest my ears.

Hoping it all comes back
Robert

Saturday, January 31, 2004

B^A=C or

1. WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR KITCHEN PLATES? White with this blue leafy pattern.

2. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? Don't Panic Hacker Culture and a stack of quantum physics books

3. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? No mouse pad

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE BOARD GAME? Trivial Pursuit. Any and all editions except the ones BJ's memorizeed

5. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE MAGAZINE? Macworld or Time

6. FAVORITE SMELL? cold

7. LEAST FAVORITE SMELL? rotting feces

8. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING? Shit this is my life it's not a nightmare.

9. FAVORITE COLOR? Hunter Green

10. LEAST FAVORITE COLOR? Bright Green

11. HOW MANY RINGS BEFORE YOU ANSWER THE PHONE? Two


12. FUTURE CHILD'S NAME? Ford or Arthur girls names I leave to my future wife if I can ever find her.

13. WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT IN LIFE? The pursuit of knowledge

14. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA? chocolate

15. DO YOU LIKE TO DRIVE FAST? No it is not safe.

16. DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL? Well yes.

17. STORMS - COOL OR SCARY? When it is raining I feel most at peace.

18. WHAT TYPE WAS YOUR FIRST CAR? I can not drive

19. IF YOU COULD MEET ONE PERSON DEAD OR ALIVE? God think all the questions answered in about an hour.

20. FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK: I do not believe in alcohol it hurts to many peoples lives.

21. WHAT IS YOUR SIGN & YOUR BIRTHDAY? Aries, April 8, 1988

22. DO YOU EAT THE STEMS OF BROCCOLI? Yes

23. IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY JOB WHAT WOULD IT BE? G-D if it ever opens up.

24. IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY COLOR HAIR, WHAT WOULD IT BE? Well terminal orange. Or blue

25. IS THE GLASS HALF FULL OR HALF EMPTY? Both. It is the samething

26. FAVORITE MOVIES? Wargames Tron Real Genius Chasing Amy Citizen Kane.

27. DO YOU TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS? I type serval ways.

28. WHAT'S UNDER YOUR BED? A whole load of electronics manuals and books


29. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER? 8

30. SPORT TO WATCH? Non

31. WHAT IS YOUR SINGLE BIGGEST FEAR? failure, and going insane.

32. SAY ONE NICE THING ABOUT THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU: Russian are assume.

35. FAVORITE SWEET: Nutella.

36. FAVORITE TV SHOWS? The Screen Savers, Stargate SG-1, Nova, Scrubs, M*A*S*H

37. KETCHUP OR MUSTARD? Ketchup

38. HAMBURGERS OR HOTDOGS? Hamburgers

39. FAVORITE SOFT DRINK? I do not drink soft drinks. Go Tea.

Well my tradition of spending friday night in my room continues. I left the house for the first time since Wednesday. It was to pick up a case for my iPod. I know I am not having the typical high school experience. Yet what is the alternative? acting stupid? Well I think even if I tried I could not due that. I go to movies by myself. I think I going to start showing off my knowledge again. Fuck being modest.

Here is a question I pose to you all in some ways being smart is a curse. Another Is bearing the cross of being a geek worth being who you are?

One thing I wish to add is that the universe has played one huge cosmic joke on me. Most places a computer geek is given at least one other to hang out with. At my school no such luck. I am the only one in my grade. I am guessing the universe has done this to teach me something. But you know I have gain all I could from this so I once again hope and pray my school gets another computer geek to enter into my grade. But them getting someone at this stage of the game that does not play a sport seems like a low possibility. It also does not help that my schools computer science is very much lacking.

I have been doing some research and in recent years all the people that enter my grade play a sport at the school. I wonder if this is some secret policy at the school. But of course it could just be alot of people play sports. And my cynical views of the universe are just clouding me from the answers.

I wish I could just skip this step. I can talk to adults like most people talk to there peers. Peers I have a problem with. Always been a problem. If your older or younger than I am no problem. But the closer you get to my age the harder it gets for me.

Well I need to rest even if all the meds I am on keep me up.
Robert

VCR playing
Good WIll Hunting

Thursday, January 29, 2004

I wonder...

Will my blogs one day be put into a book. All my logs on paper. It's weird to think about what your future self will do with the data that you are creating in the present. I think it would be fun on day if technology has the ability to download my entire brain and examine my memories via some sort of Digital interface. Well i am going to see if my blog is in the internet archive. Well no but I added it to the next crawl. Oh look squawkbox.tv is down as such comments are not currently available. I have e-mailed blogger about the title issue. Using ipod to finish a book eye t o itchy to read.

Type with my eyes closed
Robert