I must find it now. Prove to the world how smart I am. Show them my genius. What if I pick the wrong field. What if I end up in a field where i never get my truly original idea. ANd if I had only checked the other box I would have the noble. Like wise what if einstein had decided to go out drinking every night we would have all lost something. In my dreams I see equations on big sheet of tile. {for those that do not know I like to do complex math on tiled floor and stand above it to look for the patterns} But I always wake up before I am able to read the proof statement. I think it has to do with unity because I see that I refer to gravity the strong and weak forces and gravity all in the equation. And I think what looks like a strange attempt at explaining electromagnetism. But I can not make sense of it. I just have not learned enough to do that level of math in the real world. Because when i am dreaming I can do it. But when I am awake I get nervous and can not find the answer.
Not having the answers scares me.
What happens if I fall into mediocrity? What if I can never show the world my genius?
Well the only way i can prevent my fears is to learn more and that it what I shall do.
Robert
