six questions

YOU CAN ASK ME SIX QUESTIONS::
1.
2.
3.
4.
5.
6.

No matter how random, revealing, rude, insightful or pointless

I promise to answer them completely truthfully

I will send the answers to any e-mail or post them publicly if you wish.

Fianlly got around to upateing it

I finally got around to updating my myspace have a look.
Find me on MySpace and be my friend!

they need names

My new ibook has just arrived and now it needs a name. Please leave suggestions in comments. Also I still need a name for my segway currently I am calling her ginger but it doesn't sit right. Any ideas are welcome.

Robert has new toy err tool

Well it finally happened I got a segway ht. That is right I am now the proud owner of a brand new segway ht I180 with extended range batteries. I have been riding around suburbia, the river front and several other cities that I have visited lately. It is quiet an amazing machine. Ever wonder what a magic carpet would feel like? Give me a call and get a demo, in just a few minutes you will find out. It feels like a hoverboard magic sneakers and a magic capert all rolled up into one. But instead of magic it uses technology. I always enjoy seeing how man can take his dreams and turn them into reality.

It has been a long time...

It has been a long time since I have posted here. Many things have happened but me and the truth still have a troubled relationship. Which is something I strive to repair. I have picked watching battlestar galetica. I did not watch it much last season but I watched the season primere and was blown away. So for the last few days I have been getting copies from a few friends and peers. What hooked me to the show was a song Metamorphosis 1 by phillip Glass. I keep playing this song over and over. It is somewhere on the net find it and give your ears a gift.

We hold these truths

If it is mine
If it was given to me as an inalienable right
Then why does it feel so good to give it away?

If some people believe that it is no more than a word?
Then why are so many people willing to take it away?
Freedom

king of the losers

guess what? I lost in all the races.
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I have a few things I have been meaning to post but I am a wee bit tired and annoyed so I best not write in this state,

well

frell
another year another loss
no matter how hard i try i lose
here is hoping for vice

I'll tell you who I am if you agree to vote for me.

I unlike most people do not promise my votes to people. I would first need to know what I am voting in before I would consider voting for someone. I would then need to hear your speech and then I would make my decision. But once that comes to pass I will vote for you sure.

Thank You

Thank you those who left comments wishing me a happy birthday. I would thank you all in person, if i knew who you all where, but you all chose to shield your identities from me.

Anonymous I as stated previously I would me more than happy to give you a hug. But since I still do not know your identity I am unable to do so. I really want to know who you are but you have left few clues to your identity and as such I am still very much in the dark.

Thank you all
Robert

i.m at dreamer8815

tomorrow is my birthday

Tomorrow is my birthday and it will be like the last couple of them. I will get many very nice gifts from my parents. But beyond my immediate family no one really cares. Most years I don't really care but for some strange reason this year I do.

It does not help that that signal has re invaded my dreams. I had worked so hard to squelch that flame in my dreams. I had done it , I had extinguished it. I had thought I had locked it away forever. But during my nap last night on the plane, that signal was back, that collection of thoughts had returned to haunt me. It had to remind me that I would never have it in reality.


(this is written like shit but I feel like shit right now)
Robert

Internet hug

sadly "Anonymous I" the only way I can currently give you a hug is by typing this.
x
If I knew who you where I would be more then happy to give you a face-to-face hug.

maybe this was not made clear

I have zero problem with no face-to-face communication. I only have a problem with this specific event. For the many reasons I have stated but also because every person there can express the ideas in the notes face-to-face (thank you commenter for allowing me to realize this).
Also note most of the time I participate in the "notes" event, because I have nothing better to do and fighting my little war does no good. But this year I did a friend hurt there knee so I spent the time making sure they were alright and kept them company. While doing this they asked don't you want to write notes to other people. I realized this face-to-face contact took precedence. So I crated the original post as a way to explain my ideological opposition to this event just incase any one excepted a note from me.

I received 4 notes. One type note from a teacher it was in french never translated it. another one a "joke" not with the simple words your hot in english and spanish. the third the only "real" note I received I responded my giving the person a big hug and a face-to-face interaction telling them how I felt. the final note was blank, yep someone left me a blank note.

Hope this clears up the issue.
robert

a little bit of insight

LAST PERSON WHO...

x. Slept in your bed:me
x. Saw you cry: I can not cry with lexapro
x. Made you cry: see above
x. You shared a drink with: no one I drink tea
x. You went to the movies with:no one
x. You went to the mall with: mom and dad
x. Yelled at you: no one
x. Sent you e-mail: apple
x. You Kissed: never been kissed


HAVE YOU EVER...

x. Said "I love you" and meant it: only to my mom and dad
x. Been to California: yep
x. Gotten in a fight with your pet: nope
x. Been to Hawaii: yes
x. Been to Mexico: yes
x. Been to Cuba: stupid laws
x. Danced naked: yep
x. Dreamed something really crazy & then it happened the next day:yes
x. Wish you were the opposite sex: yep

RANDOM TID BITS...

x. Do you have a crush on someone: duh
x. What book are you reading now: wonder boys "again" the politics fast food nation and one other one about a child savant
x. Worst feeling in the world: loneliness
x. Future son's name: ford
x. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: there is one nearby
x. What's under your bed: weird nerdy crazy stuff
x. Favorite sports to watch: lax
x. Siblings: little brother
x. Location: louisville, ky
x. College plans: Simon's rock then vassar then med school
x. Piercings/tattoos: none

EXTRA STUFF...

x. Do you do drugs: nope
x. Do you drink: nope
x. Who is your best friend: hunter
x. What are you most scared of: being alone, developing schizophrenia
x. Where do you want to get married: hilltop over looking the sea
x. Who do you really hate: all those who are evil
x. Do you have a job: nope
x. Are you for world peace: yes

STUFF...

x. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: apparently so
x. Have you ever cried over something someone of the opposite sex did: yes
x. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: there has been only one
x. Are you lonely right now: no
x. Do you want to get married: yes
x. Do you want kids: someday

FAVORITE...

x. Room in house: basement
x. Color:green, blue
x. Perfume or cologne: no
x. Month: october

IN THE LAST 96 HOURS, HAVE YOU...

x. Cried: no
x. Bought something: yes
x. Gotten sick: no
x. Sang: yep
x. Wanted to tell someone you loved them: yes
x. Missed someone: yep
x. Hugged someone: yes

part III

My working definition of stupid: making an error that could have been prevented by education of thoughtfulness.

Had a little more thought had been put into the whole idea of "notes" the phb's* could have came up with an alternate and much better system in which ideas and feeling could be expressed freely and openly with out making them come to be excepted at the end of a specific time frame. After thinking for a few more moments on the topic I realize "notes" an attempt to fix a problem, yet all they do is patch it, and while doing so propagates the problem "notes" tries to fix. The problem of people being unable to express there feelings to others for fear of ridicule . "Notes" patches this problem by providing a forum for people to express there feelings with the added ability to choose to be anonymous in expressing these feelings. One problem with this is that it only allows this flow to happen at a yearly event for a few hours. The second problem with this that it reinforces the idea that the only ways to express ideas and feelings with out fear of ridicule is to be an "anonymous coward".

What they should be doing attempting to change the society so that one has no fear of ridicule for expressing there feelings. And if they must insist on having a specific setting in which feelings are expressed they should not lock it up not a yearly event which only last for a few hours.By expanding the time-frame infinitely allows the notes to no longer be expected, and allows them to retain much more value in my mind.
Robert

p.s I think way to much into things don't I
* powers that be

I have no problem with notes.

I have no idea with "notes" in themselves. I just have a problem that a time is set aside where they become excepted. I like writing notes. I just have problems when a good idea has to be shoved in to a nice little slot. When something is excepted it loses half its value at least in my mind.

Notes

Lcs has a stupid tradition (imho) of putting notes in envelops for other people during retreat. The notes are supposed to all us time express ideas or feelings to our other students. I think this is a bad idea. We should have our friends know how we feel about them by our actions not by some note that we write in under a minute. Now notes in themselves I have no problem with I have the problem that we set aside a time when they become expected someone people like to put more thought in things that a quick note. So if you wanted a note from me I am sorry it is just not something I do. I choose to give hugs so feel free to ask for one.

I want to be a member of the green lantern corps

"In brightest day, in blackest night,
no evil shall escape my sight!
Let those who worship evil's might,
beware my power.. Green Lantern's light!"
-Alan Scott, the Golden Age Green Lantern
[1943, credited to Alfred Bester]
-Hal Jordan of Earth

ip tracking

it would be obscenely easy for me to track the ip address of the people that come to this site. If you have ever meet me you would know that I am a privacy nut. And that is why I do not log the ip's of people that come to my site then do a trace-route to find where they are. I want people to volunteer the information and not have me take it from them. so if you would not mind leave your name at the end of your comment. Pretty please with sugar on top.

Who is listening

I have to wonder who is listening to the words I write everyday. My life I admit is rather bland and the words I post here are by no means note worthy. Not to say I am a bad writer in other forms it is just the words I write here leave something to be desired. I must ask who reads and posts here. I am tempted to disable anonymous comments. But that would serve no purpose because people would just fill the forms with nonsense information and continue to post.

So please when you leave comments please leave your name.

That is all
Robert
--I hate being sick! Bloody flu!

The plan deployed

Well I think everyone knows of the plan that I deployed today.
But for histories sake I shall write it down here.

Placed in her bag where two books.
On voltaire candide was taped this quote
"Think where mans glory most begins and ends,
and say my glory was I had such friends."
(William Butler Yeats)

On C.S Lewis The screwtape letters was taped this note)
(this was originally supposed to be part of the note but was removed by me a the last minute)
Beauty Fades
Flowers Wilt
Candy crumbles
But literature last forever
Here are two works that will last forever

(this part was actually on the book)
P.S (The sacrifice to the
hallmark gods are in your mailbox.)



Now the sacrifice to the hallmark gods
one "Objects of Desire" Ballotin 1 lb. (36 pieces) by godiva
was placed in her mailbox with the note

Friendship is like a bank account;
you cannot continue to draw on it
without making a deposit.
- Nicole Beale

Robert
Reading wonder boys

P.S. ( yes I do realize that this violates the idea from finding forester
"the key to a woman's heart is an unexpected gift at an unexpected time."
But there is nothing that says that you can't at times accept societies convention to make someone happy.

P.S.S. Yes I know my name appeared nowhere on any of the notes. Well there are two reasons for that. One this was originally part of a much larger plan that ended with me at her door reading poetry. Well when I removed that part I decided to leave my name out of it still because the entire point of the plan was to make her happy. I think that goal was reached at least I hope so.

Ideas

Why is it that I always fall in the love with movies with writers. Finding Forester and Wonder boys are two movies like this. In the past few days I have found them playing over and over in the house. I know them like I know the guide. They each contain ideas that I use on a daily basis. if you have not seen these movies I highly recommend you do.

idea one.
the key to a woman's heart is an unexpected gift at an unexpected time.

idea two.
that the most important gift is the gift of friendship.

idea three.
that we should do it pursue what makes us happy.

there are several more ideas that I can not seem to put into words. You will have to see the movies for yourself. I will be happy to loan them to you.

well bittorrent just finished grabbing the newest episode of stargate that has aried overseas.

Robert

This american life

Many americans think that radio is dead. They are wrong radio is alive and well just not in the usa. Radio still plays a strong role in there lives. But npr is our last best hope of radio in the united states. My favorite program at the moment is "this american life". I have many own many radios from tiny fm only radios to large ham and shortwave radios. But I choose to listen to the show via the web. you can listen to just about every episode of the show on there website www.thisamericanlife.org. Each week we choose a theme and put together different kinds of stories on that theme. It is quite an amazing show. I highly recommend starting with the staff favorites http://thisamericanlife.org/pages/favorites.html. if you listen to only one show please listen to The House By Loon Lake it is my favorite but any of the show listed on the favorites page are amazing. Please do not let radio in america die.

Robert

listen to Act V. http://thisamericanlife.org/pages/descriptions/02/218.html

Governor's cup Champion !!!

I placed third in the district for arts an humanities. I took a test this past saturday and had to miss a bit of mock trial to do it but
today I received a medal during morning meeting and I get to move on to the regionals and then to the state.

Mock trial

Mock trial will be battling model lab or is it marion county in a scrimmage this Saturday. More detalis to follow. But mark it in your pda's

I do play sports

I do play sports. I happen to bench warm for the lacrosse team.

And one more thing

During the college counselor meeting I noticed that emily e. was staring at me. Any Idea why she did this or if she was starring at something around me I would like to know.

Thanks
Robert

Wandering into meetings

So it the last few weeks I have walked into three different meetings. the first meeting I walked into was the student marketing committee. They where having wicks pizza in the seminar room aka "the junior lounge". Harry T. and I we walking by and we were like lets join the committee. So we walked in and asked if we could join and we did. Now when I go into a meeting I am not going to just sit and be quite, I am going sit up and speak my mind. Now today I had heard that there was going to be a meeting to interview a new college counselor. So after going through natural channels to try to get into this meeting I get stuck in the bureaucracy of the system I just decide to walk into the room where the meeting is going to be and sit down. And no one really seems to care that I am part of the meeting. So the guy we interviewed seems really good and I truly hope collegiate decides to hire him wells until I see the other people they have in line. But right now it is going to be hard to top this guy.

So after this meeting I am walking up stairway a and I see mrs. talamni and I ask what meeting she is going to and she says the marketing committee and I shout keep the mascot I love the amazons and the titans. But of course they they want me to come in and explain how I why I feel that way. So I precede to do so and it so happens that this is one of those conversation that I have planned out. I think I did a good job. Here is hoping they keep the amazons and titans names as our mascots.

Well that is all for now folks
Robert
listening to Somewhere in the Arabian Sea Episode 206
http://www.thisamericanlife.org/ra/206.ram

New Rule

When posting a comment please at the end add your name.

An interesting conversation

Ok so I walk into the french room last period on friday
and John Speed and Eleanor are having a conversation
john speed says he want his wife to be beautiful thats it
and Eleanor responds wouldn't you one some that has brains and looks
John Speed says thats not possible
and I say "your sitting next to your contradiction, eleanor is smart and beautiful"
and she says "thank you Robert!"
then John Speed says "beauty is in the eye of the beholder"

and I lounge back in my cherry-wood chair and say "then you must be blind"
which causes Julian and John Speed to laugh
Eleanor blushes to the point her whole face turns red
she put her hands up to her face and leans down to her knees
Julians then says "that a compliment"
Eleanor then sits up and says "I am blushing aren't I"
Note: Eleanor was smiling and laughing too.

The question I pose is did I embarrass eleanor.
Because I think I did and I want to apologize. But if I did not embarrass her my apology would reveal that I over analyze every conversation I have.

So I ask you the people of the web lend me you conciseness' and tell me what I should do.

ritalin and concerta

I am still in the trial phase of these two medications. My doctor wanted me to not take the concerta during the high stress time of finals. I know that it would be stupid to be take the regular form and long lasting form of the medication at the same time. Hope that clears things up.

geek hotness

am I hot or not

My lord someone reads my blog

Anonymous said...
Robert, I love you.
10:28:02 PM  

My god someone is reading my blog. And apparently they love me. If your are anonymous would you mind revealing your identity to me. If you would rather keep you identity a secret
would you at least continue posting comments. If you know about me in the real world, I truly beg you please come forward.

And just for you I will post one of those really lame polls
1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
Got a 98 on a math final

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Yes I did. People now know I have like eleanor since fifth grade.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
no

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Not this year.

5. What countries did you visit?
Canada

6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
True Love

7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Fri Nov 26 take a look at the blog entry for that day

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Setting that big secret free upon the world

9. What was your biggest failure?
Setting that big secret free upon the world

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Have you ever met me

11. What was the best thing you bought?
My books

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
eleanors'

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
whits'

14. Where did most of your money go?
Apple computer

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Living forever

16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
Mr blue sky

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? sadder
ii. thinner or fatter? Thinner
iii. richer or poorer? richer

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
therapy

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
slashdot

20. How will you be spending Christmas? (how did i?)
With family

22. Did you fall in love in 2004?
oh how I wish

23. How many one-night stands?
none

24. What was your favorite TV program?
Farscape

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
whit

26. What was the best book you read?
the screwtape letter

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
e.l.o

28. What did you want and get?
ipod

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
garden state

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
No frelling idea. 16

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
helping more with open source

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
preppy returns

34. What kept you sane?
lexapro and thearpy

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
kate botello

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
the war

37. Who did you miss?
madeleine

38. Who were the best new people you met?
dr galler

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004:
that being a genius is worth jack shit in the real world

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
and will all float on all right

My meds

I am now on (note I have no idea how to spell these)
Concerta
lexapro
alburteral
flovent
flonase
singuar
exterdrale
Ritaln
and a few others I do not take very often

I am one sick kid.