The Towel

Backstreets back alright

2006-09-24T07:02:00.000-04:00

well the backstreet boys may not be back again but i am. Now you may wonder it what ways am I back.

|-back to this blog? yes
|-back to blogging? eh?
|-back home? As you may or may not know I had a very nasty experience at sarah lawrence college that has necessitated me taking a year off. as such, for the time being i'm back to the room I have had occupied for 13 years. I will in time, once all wounds have healed post a vivivd retelling of my 9 days wandering pandaemonium, at least the parts I didn't disassociate away.
|-back to reality? did I ever live in reality is the question you should be asking. right now I'm at least in a parking orbit closer than I have been in a while.

\Hope to see you all again
starbuck
{yeah I been trying to get a really cool nick name. at college I was segway even thought I tried to put forth that everyone called me starbuck just didn't work. Although some elite american colleges still are under the impression that people call me ford. gave me a laugh every-time they sent me a letter with that false tone of friendship. still others think people call me god you would be amazed what slips past those guys.}
p.s. I not a member of the eastern standard tribe at the moment so to get an idea of what time I am awake have a look at what time it is in tokyo.

robby

six questions

2005-09-05T23:23:00.000-04:00

YOU CAN ASK ME SIX QUESTIONS::
1.
2.
3.
4.
5.
6.

No matter how random, revealing, rude, insightful or pointless

I promise to answer them completely truthfully

I will send the answers to any e-mail or post them publicly if you wish.

Fianlly got around to upateing it

2005-08-28T17:51:00.000-04:00

I finally got around to updating my myspace have a look.
Find me on MySpace and be my friend!

they need names

2005-08-17T01:06:00.000-04:00

My new ibook has just arrived and now it needs a name. Please leave suggestions in comments. Also I still need a name for my segway currently I am calling her ginger but it doesn't sit right. Any ideas are welcome.

Robert has new toy err tool

2005-08-12T22:19:00.000-04:00

Well it finally happened I got a segway ht. That is right I am now the proud owner of a brand new segway ht I180 with extended range batteries. I have been riding around suburbia, the river front and several other cities that I have visited lately. It is quiet an amazing machine. Ever wonder what a magic carpet would feel like? Give me a call and get a demo, in just a few minutes you will find out. It feels like a hoverboard magic sneakers and a magic capert all rolled up into one. But instead of magic it uses technology. I always enjoy seeing how man can take his dreams and turn them into reality.

It has been a long time...

2005-07-29T05:39:00.000-04:00

It has been a long time since I have posted here. Many things have happened but me and the truth still have a troubled relationship. Which is something I strive to repair. I have picked watching battlestar galetica. I did not watch it much last season but I watched the season primere and was blown away. So for the last few days I have been getting copies from a few friends and peers. What hooked me to the show was a song Metamorphosis 1 by phillip Glass. I keep playing this song over and over. It is somewhere on the net find it and give your ears a gift.

2005-05-22T23:48:00.000-04:00

We hold these truths

If it is mine
If it was given to me as an inalienable right
Then why does it feel so good to give it away?

If some people believe that it is no more than a word?
Then why are so many people willing to take it away?
Freedom

king of the losers

2005-05-08T02:43:00.000-04:00

guess what? I lost in all the races.
------------------
I have a few things I have been meaning to post but I am a wee bit tired and annoyed so I best not write in this state,

well

2005-04-20T01:26:00.000-04:00

frell
another year another loss
no matter how hard i try i lose
here is hoping for vice

I'll tell you who I am if you agree to vote for me.

2005-04-14T20:02:00.000-04:00

I unlike most people do not promise my votes to people. I would first need to know what I am voting in before I would consider voting for someone. I would then need to hear your speech and then I would make my decision. But once that comes to pass I will vote for you sure.

Thank You

2005-04-10T20:48:00.000-04:00

Thank you those who left comments wishing me a happy birthday. I would thank you all in person, if i knew who you all where, but you all chose to shield your identities from me.

Anonymous I as stated previously I would me more than happy to give you a hug. But since I still do not know your identity I am unable to do so. I really want to know who you are but you have left few clues to your identity and as such I am still very much in the dark.

Thank you all
Robert

i.m at dreamer8815

tomorrow is my birthday

2005-04-07T16:22:00.000-04:00

Tomorrow is my birthday and it will be like the last couple of them. I will get many very nice gifts from my parents. But beyond my immediate family no one really cares. Most years I don't really care but for some strange reason this year I do.

It does not help that that signal has re invaded my dreams. I had worked so hard to squelch that flame in my dreams. I had done it , I had extinguished it. I had thought I had locked it away forever. But during my nap last night on the plane, that signal was back, that collection of thoughts had returned to haunt me. It had to remind me that I would never have it in reality.

(this is written like shit but I feel like shit right now)
Robert

Internet hug

2005-03-19T13:19:00.000-05:00

sadly "Anonymous I" the only way I can currently give you a hug is by typing this.
x
If I knew who you where I would be more then happy to give you a face-to-face hug.

maybe this was not made clear

2005-03-19T12:46:00.000-05:00

I have zero problem with no face-to-face communication. I only have a problem with this specific event. For the many reasons I have stated but also because every person there can express the ideas in the notes face-to-face (thank you commenter for allowing me to realize this).
Also note most of the time I participate in the "notes" event, because I have nothing better to do and fighting my little war does no good. But this year I did a friend hurt there knee so I spent the time making sure they were alright and kept them company. While doing this they asked don't you want to write notes to other people. I realized this face-to-face contact took precedence. So I crated the original post as a way to explain my ideological opposition to this event just incase any one excepted a note from me.

I received 4 notes. One type note from a teacher it was in french never translated it. another one a "joke" not with the simple words your hot in english and spanish. the third the only "real" note I received I responded my giving the person a big hug and a face-to-face interaction telling them how I felt. the final note was blank, yep someone left me a blank note.

Hope this clears up the issue.
robert

a little bit of insight

2005-03-18T22:15:00.000-05:00

LAST PERSON WHO...

x. Slept in your bed:me
x. Saw you cry: I can not cry with lexapro
x. Made you cry: see above
x. You shared a drink with: no one I drink tea
x. You went to the movies with:no one
x. You went to the mall with: mom and dad
x. Yelled at you: no one
x. Sent you e-mail: apple
x. You Kissed: never been kissed

HAVE YOU EVER...

x. Said "I love you" and meant it: only to my mom and dad
x. Been to California: yep
x. Gotten in a fight with your pet: nope
x. Been to Hawaii: yes
x. Been to Mexico: yes
x. Been to Cuba: stupid laws
x. Danced naked: yep
x. Dreamed something really crazy & then it happened the next day:yes
x. Wish you were the opposite sex: yep

RANDOM TID BITS...

x. Do you have a crush on someone: duh
x. What book are you reading now: wonder boys "again" the politics fast food nation and one other one about a child savant
x. Worst feeling in the world: loneliness
x. Future son's name: ford
x. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: there is one nearby
x. What's under your bed: weird nerdy crazy stuff
x. Favorite sports to watch: lax
x. Siblings: little brother
x. Location: louisville, ky
x. College plans: Simon's rock then vassar then med school
x. Piercings/tattoos: none

EXTRA STUFF...

x. Do you do drugs: nope
x. Do you drink: nope
x. Who is your best friend: hunter
x. What are you most scared of: being alone, developing schizophrenia
x. Where do you want to get married: hilltop over looking the sea
x. Who do you really hate: all those who are evil
x. Do you have a job: nope
x. Are you for world peace: yes

STUFF...

x. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: apparently so
x. Have you ever cried over something someone of the opposite sex did: yes
x. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: there has been only one
x. Are you lonely right now: no
x. Do you want to get married: yes
x. Do you want kids: someday

FAVORITE...

x. Room in house: basement
x. Color:green, blue
x. Perfume or cologne: no
x. Month: october

IN THE LAST 96 HOURS, HAVE YOU...

x. Cried: no
x. Bought something: yes
x. Gotten sick: no
x. Sang: yep
x. Wanted to tell someone you loved them: yes
x. Missed someone: yep
x. Hugged someone: yes

part III

2005-03-17T23:15:00.000-05:00

My working definition of stupid: making an error that could have been prevented by education of thoughtfulness.

Had a little more thought had been put into the whole idea of "notes" the phb's* could have came up with an alternate and much better system in which ideas and feeling could be expressed freely and openly with out making them come to be excepted at the end of a specific time frame. After thinking for a few more moments on the topic I realize "notes" an attempt to fix a problem, yet all they do is patch it, and while doing so propagates the problem "notes" tries to fix. The problem of people being unable to express there feelings to others for fear of ridicule . "Notes" patches this problem by providing a forum for people to express there feelings with the added ability to choose to be anonymous in expressing these feelings. One problem with this is that it only allows this flow to happen at a yearly event for a few hours. The second problem with this that it reinforces the idea that the only ways to express ideas and feelings with out fear of ridicule is to be an "anonymous coward".

What they should be doing attempting to change the society so that one has no fear of ridicule for expressing there feelings. And if they must insist on having a specific setting in which feelings are expressed they should not lock it up not a yearly event which only last for a few hours.By expanding the time-frame infinitely allows the notes to no longer be expected, and allows them to retain much more value in my mind.
Robert

p.s I think way to much into things don't I
* powers that be

I have no problem with notes.

2005-03-13T10:04:00.000-05:00

I have no idea with "notes" in themselves. I just have a problem that a time is set aside where they become excepted. I like writing notes. I just have problems when a good idea has to be shoved in to a nice little slot. When something is excepted it loses half its value at least in my mind.

Notes

2005-03-12T11:46:00.000-05:00

Lcs has a stupid tradition (imho) of putting notes in envelops for other people during retreat. The notes are supposed to all us time express ideas or feelings to our other students. I think this is a bad idea. We should have our friends know how we feel about them by our actions not by some note that we write in under a minute. Now notes in themselves I have no problem with I have the problem that we set aside a time when they become expected someone people like to put more thought in things that a quick note. So if you wanted a note from me I am sorry it is just not something I do. I choose to give hugs so feel free to ask for one.

I want to be a member of the green lantern corps

2005-02-24T22:05:00.000-05:00

"In brightest day, in blackest night,
no evil shall escape my sight!
Let those who worship evil's might,
beware my power.. Green Lantern's light!"
-Alan Scott, the Golden Age Green Lantern
[1943, credited to Alfred Bester]
-Hal Jordan of Earth

ip tracking

2005-02-16T19:40:00.000-05:00

it would be obscenely easy for me to track the ip address of the people that come to this site. If you have ever meet me you would know that I am a privacy nut. And that is why I do not log the ip's of people that come to my site then do a trace-route to find where they are. I want people to volunteer the information and not have me take it from them. so if you would not mind leave your name at the end of your comment. Pretty please with sugar on top.

Who is listening

2005-02-16T18:05:00.000-05:00

I have to wonder who is listening to the words I write everyday. My life I admit is rather bland and the words I post here are by no means note worthy. Not to say I am a bad writer in other forms it is just the words I write here leave something to be desired. I must ask who reads and posts here. I am tempted to disable anonymous comments. But that would serve no purpose because people would just fill the forms with nonsense information and continue to post.

So please when you leave comments please leave your name.

That is all
Robert
--I hate being sick! Bloody flu!

The plan deployed

2005-02-14T23:57:00.000-05:00

Well I think everyone knows of the plan that I deployed today.
But for histories sake I shall write it down here.

Placed in her bag where two books.
On voltaire candide was taped this quote
"Think where mans glory most begins and ends,
and say my glory was I had such friends."
(William Butler Yeats)

On C.S Lewis The screwtape letters was taped this note)
(this was originally supposed to be part of the note but was removed by me a the last minute)
Beauty Fades
Flowers Wilt
Candy crumbles
But literature last forever
Here are two works that will last forever

(this part was actually on the book)
P.S (The sacrifice to the
hallmark gods are in your mailbox.)

Now the sacrifice to the hallmark gods
one "Objects of Desire" Ballotin 1 lb. (36 pieces) by godiva
was placed in her mailbox with the note

Friendship is like a bank account;
you cannot continue to draw on it
without making a deposit.
- Nicole Beale

Robert
Reading wonder boys

P.S. ( yes I do realize that this violates the idea from finding forester
"the key to a woman's heart is an unexpected gift at an unexpected time."
But there is nothing that says that you can't at times accept societies convention to make someone happy.

P.S.S. Yes I know my name appeared nowhere on any of the notes. Well there are two reasons for that. One this was originally part of a much larger plan that ended with me at her door reading poetry. Well when I removed that part I decided to leave my name out of it still because the entire point of the plan was to make her happy. I think that goal was reached at least I hope so.

Ideas

2005-02-13T21:00:00.000-05:00

Why is it that I always fall in the love with movies with writers. Finding Forester and Wonder boys are two movies like this. In the past few days I have found them playing over and over in the house. I know them like I know the guide. They each contain ideas that I use on a daily basis. if you have not seen these movies I highly recommend you do.

idea one.
the key to a woman's heart is an unexpected gift at an unexpected time.

idea two.
that the most important gift is the gift of friendship.

idea three.
that we should do it pursue what makes us happy.

there are several more ideas that I can not seem to put into words. You will have to see the movies for yourself. I will be happy to loan them to you.

well bittorrent just finished grabbing the newest episode of stargate that has aried overseas.

Robert

This american life

2005-02-10T23:12:00.000-05:00

Many americans think that radio is dead. They are wrong radio is alive and well just not in the usa. Radio still plays a strong role in there lives. But npr is our last best hope of radio in the united states. My favorite program at the moment is "this american life". I have many own many radios from tiny fm only radios to large ham and shortwave radios. But I choose to listen to the show via the web. you can listen to just about every episode of the show on there website www.thisamericanlife.org. Each week we choose a theme and put together different kinds of stories on that theme. It is quite an amazing show. I highly recommend starting with the staff favorites http://thisamericanlife.org/pages/favorites.html. if you listen to only one show please listen to The House By Loon Lake it is my favorite but any of the show listed on the favorites page are amazing. Please do not let radio in america die.

Robert

listen to Act V. http://thisamericanlife.org/pages/descriptions/02/218.html

Governor's cup Champion !!!

2005-02-08T22:55:00.000-05:00

I placed third in the district for arts an humanities. I took a test this past saturday and had to miss a bit of mock trial to do it but
today I received a medal during morning meeting and I get to move on to the regionals and then to the state.

Mock trial

2005-02-07T22:47:00.000-05:00

Mock trial will be battling model lab or is it marion county in a scrimmage this Saturday. More detalis to follow. But mark it in your pda's

I do play sports

2005-02-07T18:05:00.000-05:00

I do play sports. I happen to bench warm for the lacrosse team.

And one more thing

2005-02-01T19:18:00.000-05:00

During the college counselor meeting I noticed that emily e. was staring at me. Any Idea why she did this or if she was starring at something around me I would like to know.

Thanks
Robert

Wandering into meetings

2005-02-01T19:15:00.000-05:00

So it the last few weeks I have walked into three different meetings. the first meeting I walked into was the student marketing committee. They where having wicks pizza in the seminar room aka "the junior lounge". Harry T. and I we walking by and we were like lets join the committee. So we walked in and asked if we could join and we did. Now when I go into a meeting I am not going to just sit and be quite, I am going sit up and speak my mind. Now today I had heard that there was going to be a meeting to interview a new college counselor. So after going through natural channels to try to get into this meeting I get stuck in the bureaucracy of the system I just decide to walk into the room where the meeting is going to be and sit down. And no one really seems to care that I am part of the meeting. So the guy we interviewed seems really good and I truly hope collegiate decides to hire him wells until I see the other people they have in line. But right now it is going to be hard to top this guy.

So after this meeting I am walking up stairway a and I see mrs. talamni and I ask what meeting she is going to and she says the marketing committee and I shout keep the mascot I love the amazons and the titans. But of course they they want me to come in and explain how I why I feel that way. So I precede to do so and it so happens that this is one of those conversation that I have planned out. I think I did a good job. Here is hoping they keep the amazons and titans names as our mascots.

Well that is all for now folks
Robert
listening to Somewhere in the Arabian Sea Episode 206
http://www.thisamericanlife.org/ra/206.ram

New Rule

2005-01-30T17:13:00.000-05:00

When posting a comment please at the end add your name.

An interesting conversation

2005-01-30T16:54:00.000-05:00

Ok so I walk into the french room last period on friday
and John Speed and Eleanor are having a conversation
john speed says he want his wife to be beautiful thats it
and Eleanor responds wouldn't you one some that has brains and looks
John Speed says thats not possible
and I say "your sitting next to your contradiction, eleanor is smart and beautiful"
and she says "thank you Robert!"
then John Speed says "beauty is in the eye of the beholder"

and I lounge back in my cherry-wood chair and say "then you must be blind"
which causes Julian and John Speed to laugh
Eleanor blushes to the point her whole face turns red
she put her hands up to her face and leans down to her knees
Julians then says "that a compliment"
Eleanor then sits up and says "I am blushing aren't I"
Note: Eleanor was smiling and laughing too.

The question I pose is did I embarrass eleanor.
Because I think I did and I want to apologize. But if I did not embarrass her my apology would reveal that I over analyze every conversation I have.

So I ask you the people of the web lend me you conciseness' and tell me what I should do.

ritalin and concerta

2005-01-15T16:35:00.000-05:00

I am still in the trial phase of these two medications. My doctor wanted me to not take the concerta during the high stress time of finals. I know that it would be stupid to be take the regular form and long lasting form of the medication at the same time. Hope that clears things up.

geek hotness

2005-01-09T15:55:00.000-05:00

am I hot or not

My lord someone reads my blog

2005-01-07T20:38:00.000-05:00

Anonymous said...
Robert, I love you.
10:28:02 PM

My god someone is reading my blog. And apparently they love me. If your are anonymous would you mind revealing your identity to me. If you would rather keep you identity a secret
would you at least continue posting comments. If you know about me in the real world, I truly beg you please come forward.

And just for you I will post one of those really lame polls
1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
Got a 98 on a math final

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Yes I did. People now know I have like eleanor since fifth grade.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
no

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Not this year.

5. What countries did you visit?
Canada

6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
True Love

7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Fri Nov 26 take a look at the blog entry for that day

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Setting that big secret free upon the world

9. What was your biggest failure?
Setting that big secret free upon the world

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Have you ever met me

11. What was the best thing you bought?
My books

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
eleanors'

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
whits'

14. Where did most of your money go?
Apple computer

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Living forever

16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
Mr blue sky

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? sadder
ii. thinner or fatter? Thinner
iii. richer or poorer? richer

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
therapy

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
slashdot

20. How will you be spending Christmas? (how did i?)
With family

22. Did you fall in love in 2004?
oh how I wish

23. How many one-night stands?
none

24. What was your favorite TV program?
Farscape

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
whit

26. What was the best book you read?
the screwtape letter

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
e.l.o

28. What did you want and get?
ipod

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
garden state

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
No frelling idea. 16

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
helping more with open source

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
preppy returns

34. What kept you sane?
lexapro and thearpy

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
kate botello

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
the war

37. Who did you miss?
madeleine

38. Who were the best new people you met?
dr galler

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004:
that being a genius is worth jack shit in the real world

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
and will all float on all right

My meds

2005-01-07T20:05:00.000-05:00

I am now on (note I have no idea how to spell these)
Concerta
lexapro
alburteral
flovent
flonase
singuar
exterdrale
Ritaln
and a few others I do not take very often

I am one sick kid.

Get Shorty

2004-12-30T21:25:00.000-05:00

Use the link above.
Here is the pic of my new haircut. Please post comments.

2004-12-30T21:19:00.000-05:00

so I got a hair cut recently. I will post a pic soon.
And I think I may be part of a DUPE on slashdot.

Go Mom and Dad

2004-12-28T21:45:00.000-05:00

I got some great stuff for christmas this year.
My favorite gift is this cord jacket from orvis. I have been looking for a blue cord jacket for awhile and I found it. Sadly it is a gray/blue. But is really cool. I also got a new 40 gb ipod. I really having an ipod in my life again. You have no idea how much it changes your life till it leaves it. I also got a nintendo ds. It really an amazing device the power of a nintendo 64 in your palm. The touch-screen is a new spin on the analogue interface. But I am still getting used to it. I am still trying to find just the right hand grip for it. I also got alot of dvds and books. But I will not list all those.
Thank you very much mom and dad.

The Force is Storng with her

2004-12-15T19:32:00.000-05:00

Eleanor has a power about her. I know because I have the power to it comes from intellgince.

I noticed something every person she has dated has ended up scorned and bitter. Whit is a prime example of course. But j speed dated her once upon a time and look what happened he can not stand her. What power does she posses that allows her to do this. Is she even aware that she has this power over people?

I wonder if I am given the oppertunity to date her will I end up in the same situation as all the others. Bittered and scorned.

Yet I would be serious about it unlike whit who cheated on her on multiple times whit you are a dumbass for doing that by the way.

I think if given the chance I would succed where others have failed.

Robert's Blog

2004-12-12T23:16:00.000-05:00

Noncombatant: A dead Quaker. -- Ambrose Bierce

Robert's Blog

2004-12-11T20:04:00.000-05:00

I was able to hide all feeling for all those many years I can do it again. It would be simple but now it is all there out in the open. It has left my mind it is now the giant pink elephant in the room Thank god I am on meds who knows what would have happened with out them.

Well this whole thing would not have happened this was all caused by the fact the anexity went away I thought I had a chance.

I WAS WRONG!
oh so very very wrong

this is just like before I met her no techtv/zdtv and I am bored at school. My lord it is like before the screen savers is gone and so was the dream.

Robert

deprograming

2004-12-11T13:43:00.000-05:00

I am slowly over time removeing all feelings for eleanor from my mind. It is hard because it has been a part of me for many years. But slowly I am being able to do it. I really wish I did not have to. So many dreams are getting repressed. So many thoughts. It is what I must do I must accept I must move on.

Robert

quiz

2004-12-10T02:08:00.000-05:00

ABOUT YOURSELF...
[known as] cunningham
[guy/girl] male
[age] 16
[location] louisville
[birthdate] April 8, 1988
[school]Collegiate
[ethnicity] white
[religion] between jedi and jew
[shoe size] 10
[height] average
[hair color] brown
[eye color] brotwn
[style] professor
[fears] evil

HAVE YOU EVER....?
[cheated on someone] no
[fallen off the bed] no
[fallen for a relative] nope
[had your heart broken] please looks a few posts down
[had a dream come true] nearly
[done something you regret] yes
[cheated on a test] of course not honor code for life.

CURRENTLY...
[wearing] bits of my uniform
[listening to] bbc radio 4
[eating] ice
[feeling] sick
[located] bed
[chatting with] no one
[watching] nothing really
[should REALLY be doing] french homework

DO YOU
[brush your teeth] yes
[like anybody] please read a few posts down
[have any piercings] no
[drive] nope
[believe in santa claus] of course
[smoke] nope
[drink] tea
[have a cellphone] yes
[have a pager] nope.

FRIENDS
[who is your best] no idea
[who do you hate] sco
[who is the shyest] what does that word mean.
[who is the most talkative] me
[who laughs the most] zach
[do you hang out with the opposite sex] yep
[do you trust your friends] trust no one
[are you a good friend] yes

PERSONAL
[what do you want to be when you grow up] a lazy rich bumb
[what has been the best day of your life] may 11 1998
[what comes first in your life] naps
[do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush] once again read a few posts down
[what do you usually think of before you go to bed] ways to get out of doing work
[did you lose someone you really loved] ...
[how many times have you fallen deeply in love] no idea
[love your family] yep
[love your friends] yep
[have you fought] yep

FAVORITE
[movie] pleasntville
[store] amazon.com
[relative] grandparents
[sport to watch] lacrosse
[ice cream flavor] pumpkin
[fruit] banana
[candy] cocca
[car] I don't even have a permit
[class] art
[holiday] x-mas
[day of the week] friday at home
[color] green
[quote] a bunch

DO YOU
[like to give kisses] no idea
[like to walk in the rain] rain rules
[prefer black or blue pens] black
[like to travel] yep
[like someone] once again read a few posts down.
[sleep on your side, tummy, or back] side
[think you're attractive] not even a little bit
[have a goldfish] nope
[ever have the falling dream]only so I an fly
[have stuffed animals] hell yeah

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT...
[abortion] pro choice
[smoking] makes me barf
[suicide] ...
[summer] nakedness.
[tattoos] not so much
[piercings] yum
[make-up] dont really care anymore

THIS OR THAT
[pierced nose or tongue] nope
[single or taken] nope
[MTV or BET] it was once techtv/zdtv then g4 took it away from me
[7th heaven or dawsons creek] everwood
[sugar or salt] salt
[chocolate or flowers] chocolate
[color or black & white photos] b&w
[m&m's or skittles] m&m's
[stay up late or sleep in] stay up late
[hot or cold] hot
[sun or moon] suns
[left or right] left
[mustard or ketchup] ketchup
[spring or fall] fall
[happy or sad] sad
[wonder or amazement] wonder
[mcdonalds or burger king] qudoba
[mexican or italian food] mexican
[lights on or off] on
[candy or soda] candy
[pepsi or coke] neither
[serious or not when filling this out] very

ipod flash

2004-12-09T23:59:00.000-05:00

I have an idea.

What if apple made a flash player that you could use your regular ipod to load songs on to it. so you could have your ipod and use it to load songs onto the ipod flash. Say your at the office and want to jog down to starbucks. take your ipod and load your favorite jogging mix to your ipod flash.

Copyright 2004 Robert cunningham

Robert

word of the week

2004-12-07T00:22:00.000-05:00

I just had a random flasback to middle school helping jordan into a dumpster.

ok back story.
In middle school the has this vido program called ms network. every week we had a program called word of the week we would put jordan into a dumpster and he would appear and give us the word of the week. We did this amany many times. We latter found out that it was prohibited to play in or around the dumpster.

Well fun times.

--Robert

Any good?

2004-12-07T00:14:00.000-05:00

wrote this for my ap comp class.
Is it any good?

No one knows what occurs in the mind of a person with Alzheimer's. The disease can strip patients of their gifts, but it cannot quite rob them of their passions. The piano was Dr. Richard Barbee's passion, his last connection with the world of memory. Having progressively lost this gift, he now sits in a room that has been stocked with memories provided by the caretakers for people who have been robbed of their own. The tables are strewn with photographs of unknown children, wives and husbands. Dr. Richard Barbee is a husband, a father, a dentist, a pianist, and my papa. He sits at piano not knowing why or even what it is, but there is something in his eyes that says that a part of him is longing to play again.

--Robert

romatic adventures

2004-12-02T02:34:00.000-05:00

So it seems to be that what I really want to do in life is something that you can not really do anymore.

I want to have adventures explore ancient areas discover new and really wild things. When I look up at the night sky I see thousands of adventures waiting just waiting. All I need is a ship and a group of people with similar goal. Think about what would happen if tomorrow someone invented warp drive. A way of going faster than the speed of light. We have impulse drives in the labs right now. Those have one use in my mind shuttle craft. But we need warp light speed.

What if tomorrow a group of alien diplomats lands on the steps of congress and wants to share everything they have. In return they want are lliterature. They have all the books in there heads they really want some more stories.

I would voulnteer in a second to go up and out there. I want to see the earthrise from the moon. I want to step foot ona naother planet. I want to see other culutures.

I would to point a ship at the second star on the right and go straight on till morning. Start a colony. Discover a utopia.

We know what lies over the nezt hill. But what lies over the next nebula. What happens we you go into a black hole. That would be a hell of a thing.

But the odds of this happening are so low.
odds are I will never get to step foot on another planet.
The moon maybe. I can at least look forward to going into orbit.
Zero g sounds like so much fun.

Robert

So I have decided to post more often now

2004-12-02T02:09:00.000-05:00

So I am going to post more now.

Various rant

So the new building is starting to grow on me but one thing really is bothersome. These cherry wood desks. We have these several hundred dollar cherry wood desk and chair sets. There nice and all but it is hard to get comfotable with them because you feel like your going to damage them some how.

The Carpert is just crazy. Something about the colours and patterns used causes it to look strange. I really wish they would change it but it is brand new and as such the odds of this happening are very low.

end rants

I wonder what will happen to these posts in ten twenty years. What will happen to my logs my random files. Will they just sit on some random server. one day soon I am going to set up a sftp server at home an load the files to it. I will also print out my posts so I can have them somewhere safe. Paper last we have papers from centuries. Magnetic media has not been around for 100 years.

ok so most of my posts are pretty bad. I think if I wrote them earlier in the night they might be better.

Well back to the slashdot and penny-arcade

Stirling you are the man

2004-11-26T17:58:00.000-05:00

Session Start (AIM - dreamer8815:morechunks): Fri Nov 26 17:24:03 2004
[17:24:06] Dreamer8815: hi
[17:24:22] morechunks: heyyy could u hold for just a sec im helping my mom with teh computer
[17:24:35] Dreamer8815: sure
[17:24:56] Dreamer8815: if you need any help you can im me
[17:25:15] morechunks: awsome idea actually thanks man
[17:25:36] Dreamer8815: I am all ways happy to help
[17:26:55] morechunks: thanks man ill let u know
[17:27:04] Dreamer8815: ok
[17:36:25] morechunks: ]yeah okyeah so waht
[17:36:27] morechunks: s
[17:36:28] morechunks: up?
[17:36:58] Dreamer8815: nothing much
[17:37:08] morechunks: coool
[17:37:15] morechunks: was t giving fun?
[17:37:23] Dreamer8815: well one thing happened you can read about it on my blog (Link: www.omtn.com)www.omtn.com
[17:37:26] Dreamer8815: yeah it was
[17:37:30] Dreamer8815: was yours
[17:37:43] morechunks: yeahhh pretty good
[17:37:54] Dreamer8815: good to hear
[17:38:19] morechunks: i had amazeing dumoling and mashed potatoes
[17:38:22] morechunks: and then the carmel cake
[17:38:30] morechunks: was the best thing ive ever had in my life
[17:38:45] Dreamer8815: I had some amazeing stuffing
[17:38:52] Dreamer8815: like the best stuffing I had ever had
[17:38:56] Dreamer8815: and the pie my god
[17:38:57] morechunks: ooooo
[17:39:03] morechunks: awsome
[17:39:07] Dreamer8815: it was the best apple pie ever
[17:39:09] morechunks: was it pumpkin??
[17:39:12] morechunks: OOOO SNAP
[17:39:18] morechunks: yes and apple is the ebst pie anyway
[17:39:25] morechunks: well blueberrys pretty good to
[17:39:26] morechunks: but
[17:39:28] Dreamer8815: there was a pumpkin pie
[17:39:28] morechunks: awsome
[17:39:35] morechunks: but not as good as the apple?
[17:39:44] Dreamer8815: and it was nearly as good
[17:39:46] morechunks: HAHAHAHA DUDE
[17:39:51] morechunks: thats hilarious
[17:39:53] morechunks: er the part
[17:40:00] morechunks: where ur cussing in sbaccean
[17:40:13] morechunks: what os sabaccean anyway?
[17:40:40] Dreamer8815: sabaccean is race of people from the tv show farscape
[17:41:07] Dreamer8815: there sort of human but not
[17:41:25] Dreamer8815: and on the show the use the sebaccean words when they curse
[17:41:36] Dreamer8815: so that things due not get bleeped out
[17:41:40] morechunks: hahahaha dude thats funny
[17:41:49] morechunks: mmm but the rest sounds pretty stinky
[17:43:17] Dreamer8815: yeah it is
[17:43:24] morechunks: w/e
[17:43:28] morechunks: life will go on
[17:43:45] Dreamer8815: yeah be happu you have some one
[17:44:10] morechunks: and besides eleanor can be pretty munipulative at times so mabey this will jsut help u find somone whos way more deserving of u
[17:46:05] Dreamer8815: it is just her strengths servere as a good foil for my own
[17:46:12] morechunks: mmm
[17:46:34] morechunks: well im sure there is somone else waiting for you out there
[17:46:40] Dreamer8815: but the geek and the popular girl
[17:46:41] morechunks: i mean everything happens for a reason
[17:46:44] Dreamer8815: odds were low
[17:46:52] morechunks: hahaha true
[17:47:11] morechunks: well qoute "popular"
[17:47:43] morechunks: i find it ironic how most of the qoute "popular people" are hated by most
[17:48:20] Dreamer8815: it is
[17:48:31] morechunks: hahaha dude i like
[17:48:51] morechunks:
Best first date location:when I go on a dat eI will update
Best first kiss location: this quiz is biased aganist nerds

[17:48:55] morechunks: thats really funny
[17:49:43] Dreamer8815: thanks
[17:52:10] morechunks: oh snap
[17:52:18] morechunks: i think im getting a new grphics card
[17:52:21] morechunks: for kissmas
[17:53:15] Dreamer8815: sweet
[17:54:27] morechunks: aright well i gotta go
[17:54:34] morechunks: sry to here about eleanor
[17:54:36] morechunks: but im sure
[17:54:45] morechunks: its all for the better some how some way maybe
[17:54:46] morechunks: tomrow
[17:54:50] morechunks: youll meet somone
[17:54:57] morechunks: wholl flip your life upside down
[17:55:01] morechunks: itll come eventually
[17:55:03] morechunks: im sure
[17:55:29] Dreamer8815: thanks man
[17:55:29] morechunks: im gone though later on
[17:55:33] morechunks: and smile
[17:55:39] morechunks: u only live life once
[17:55:42] morechunks: ..suposedly
[17:55:47] morechunks: so dont let a girl ruin it
[17:55:49] morechunks: toodles
[17:55:51] *** morechunks signed off at Fri Nov 26 17:55:51 2004.
Session Close (morechunks): Fri Nov 26 17:55:54 2004

Striling thanks you made me feel worlds bettert

Robert

Part II of Rejection

2004-11-26T03:39:00.000-05:00

The dream and the hope was far better than this.

I am listening to Factory Showroom by they might be giants
I was listen to that album while the event happened the actuall message of rejection was either "Never gonna give you up" by Rick Astley or "walkie talkie man" I am not sure because the logs say "never gonna give up" end at 1:49 but the message was recived at 1:49:11 and the itunes does not give the seconds. So who knows but I do know that itunes goes to the last minute i.e at 3:30:59 the song was laste played at 3:30
order of the conversation
In the Waiting by Zero 7 ended 1:45
Never Gonna Give you up by Rick astley ended 1:49
Walkie talkie man by steriogram ended 1:51
Barbie Girl by aqua ended 1:54
I just don't think I'll ever get over you by colin hay ended 2:00

fair by remy zero ended 2:03

this was a random order that I had set up on itunes. How werid is it the order that the songs played eh?

Robert

p.s the order was random I wish they might be giants and the beatles had played in there but they did not so I am listening to them know

Pardon my spelling I am really upset

Rejection

2004-11-26T02:51:00.000-05:00

[01:49:11] el7351: ok so i just got out of a really insane, intense relationship, right? and i am REALLY not looking at the opposite way like that AT ALL for awhile, and while yes i like you as friend, i do not want to take it further

Frell
Dren
Drannit
Hezmana
Greebol
Loomas
Fahrbot
Tralk
Mivonks
Frelnik
Thoddo
Yotz

I just used every cursre word I know in Sebacean.
And that does not even begin to expres what I feel right now
hmm this works a little better

Sorrow fills the empty places....
Places that I once used to feel....
Only space separates my soul....
From the rest, I am cold...
Life is a great big stone that drags me to the grave...
In the great hands of God, I find myself a slave....
If this doesn't count as rejected....
I might as well be inspected....

god bless the internet

the whole conversation

Session Start (AIM - dreamer8815:el7351): Fri Nov 26 01:41:56 2004
[01:41:58] Dreamer8815: hi
[01:42:03] el7351: hey
[01:42:08] el7351: how are you feeling
[01:42:13] Dreamer8815: much better
[01:42:23] Dreamer8815: thank you for asking
[01:42:47] Dreamer8815: how was your t. giveing
[01:42:55] el7351: good and yours?
[01:43:09] Dreamer8815: good aswell
[01:44:00] Dreamer8815: I must admit I spent most of the day with my computer as par for the course
[01:44:10] el7351: i see
[01:45:19] Dreamer8815: but I read half of
[01:45:31] Dreamer8815: snow crash while doing it though
[01:46:13] el7351: hey robert
[01:46:20] el7351: we need to chat
[01:46:22] Dreamer8815: started ulysses and foundation
[01:47:08] Dreamer8815: ok
[01:49:11] el7351: ok so i just got out of a really insane, intense relationship, right? and i am REALLY not looking at the opposite way like that AT ALL for awhile, and while yes i like you as friend, i do not want to take it further
[01:49:34] Dreamer8815: pefectly alright
[01:50:13] el7351: thanks
[01:50:18] el7351: for understanding
[01:50:51] el7351: its just, i need a break from all of that, i abused my friends cause of that awful relationship and i need time to focus on building our friendships back up
[01:53:19] el7351: thanks man
[01:53:35] Dreamer8815: I completely argee.
[01:54:03] Dreamer8815: as would any third party observer
[01:56:19] el7351: thankyou so much
[01:57:15] Dreamer8815: no you are doing what needs to be done. no thanks is needed.
[01:57:43] Dreamer8815: one can not disagree with pure logic
[01:58:10] el7351: i guess i am glad you agree then
[01:59:08] el7351: hey, i think i am gonna go now, i am dead tired
[01:59:20] el7351: i hope you t-gives was awsome, and i'll ttyl?
[01:59:45] Dreamer8815: pefectly understandable not everyone has insomnia like I do
[02:00:20] el7351: yeah sorry, that sucks
[02:00:25] el7351: goodnight robert
[02:00:28] *** el7351 signed off at Fri Nov 26 02:00:28 2004.
Session Close (el7351): Fri Nov 26 02:00:31 2004

Robert
Watching the crush I have had since the 5th grade die.

These are the times I wish I had friends

series quiz

2004-10-08T23:09:00.001-04:00

Name: Robert
Age: 16
Birthdate: 4-8-88
Interests: Life the universe and everthing.

(Series Two--Describe)
Your heritage: a blend of europe
Your hair: auburn
Your eyes: brown
Your fears: go insane
Your perfect pizza: pepperroines
One thing you'd like to achieve: time travel or going to the moon.

(Series Three--What is..)
Your most overused phrase on aim: "ok"
The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: iq score
Your best physical feature: eyes.
Your greatest accomplishment: 150 iq score
Thing you miss the most: my mind
Your favorite article of clothing: my pumas
Pepsi or coke: soda me you must be jokeing
McDonald's or Burger King: fast food = shit
Single or group dates: hahah I have never even been kissed let alone go on a date
Adidas or nike: puma european shoes rules
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: indian
Chocolate or vanilla: varries on time of day.

(Series four--The past)
First Kiss: yet to happen
First Boyfriend/Girlfriend: kelly kindgarden
First word: grad student
First person you had sex with: yet to happen

(Series Five--Do you...)
Smoke: Nope.
Cuss: only in alien lanuagues
Sing well: yes
Take a shower everyday: nerd takeing a shower hahhah
Have a crush(es): well maybe
Think you've been in love: possible
Want to go to college: yes
Like high school: fuck no
Want to get married: Iyes
Type w/ your fingers on the right keys: yes
Think you're attractive: no but people tell me i'm wrong

(Series Six--In the past 3 months, did/have you...)
Drank alcohol: no
Smoked: no
Done a drug: only the ones from my docter
Eaten an entire box of Oreos: yes
Been on stage: yes
Been dumped: Nope
Gone skating: lmeo. yes
Made homemade cookies: no
Been in love: I wish
Dyed your hair: no
Stolen anything: never
Had sex: no
Been Kissed: nope
Drank Coke: noe.
Kissed your mom/dad: yes
Killed anything: no

(Series Seven--Have You Ever...)
Been caught having sex: no
Been called a tease: no
Gotten beaten up: yes maybe times
Shoplifted: no
Changed who you were to fit in: never

(Series Eight--The Future)
Numbers and Names of Children: 1 ford
Describe your dream wedding: space
How do you want to die: whos says I have to do
What country would you most like to visit: anartica

(Series Nine--Opposite Sex)
Best eye color: green
Best hair color: brown /red
Short or long hair: long
Best height: my height or shorter
Best weight: whatever fits there body type
Best articles of clothing: shoes
Best first date location:when I go on a dat eI will update
Best first kiss location: this quiz is biased aganist nerds

(Series Ten--Number Of...)
Number of drugs taken illegally: o
Number of people I could trust with my life: mom and dad and all my teachers
Number of CDs that I own: 500 to six hundred
Number of piercings: o
Number of tattoos: n0
Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: apporaching 20
Number of scars on my body: 5
Number of things in my past that I regret: middle school

(Series Eleven--Right Now)
Wearing: nothing I was painting
Thinking of: eleanor
Watching: amelie
Date: october 8
Time: 11:27

(Series Twelve--Favorites)
Drink: milk
food: chicken sandwhich burgers
movie: I have a top ten list
song or band: they might be giants
Brand of shoes: merell six pairs
vehicle: bike
Animal:human
Color/s: blue green
Number: 8
Day of the week: thursday I could never get the hang of thurdays
Month: april
Time of the Day: 3 am
Pet: my sim
Cartoon: lain
Toy: my dragon dagger
TV show: Itss
Flower: sunflowers

note to self

2004-09-14T18:13:00.000-04:00

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tracking numbers

I really need to post more

2004-09-05T15:42:00.000-04:00

1. First name: Robert

2. Were you named after anyone? yes my grandfather (dad's)

3. Do you wish on stars?Yes.

4. Which finger is your favorite?pointer.

5. When did you last cry?the real question is what day did I not cry

6. Do you like your handwriting? no it is really bad.

7. What is your favorite lunchmeat? roast beef

8. Any bad habits? slashdot.org

9. Most embarrassing CD on the shelf? Modest mouse

10. If you were another person, would you be friends with you? yes. that is probably the reason I have very few friends.

11. Are you a daredevil? no.

12. Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell? no

13. Do looks matter? to a ceratin level.

14. Have you ever misused a word and sounded stupid? no.

15. Do you think there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow? no.

16. Do fish have feelings? no

17. Are you trendy? no. Nerd for life

18. How do you release anger? hacking

19. Where is your second home? hunters house

20. Do you trust others easily? no

21. What was your favorite toy as a child? my computer.

22. What class in school do you think is totally useless? french

23. Do you have a journal? why yes your swiming in it.

24. Do you use sarcasm a lot? yes

25. Have you ever been in a mosh pit? yes.

26. What do you look for in a boy/ girl? high iq score

27. What are your nicknames? black rob. handsome rob. burger king. cunningham.

28. Would you ever bungee jump? no

29. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? yes

30. Do you think that you are strong? well since lax season some what.

31. What's your favorite ice cream flavor? graters they have in the little cups at burgers blackberry.
32. What's your favorite color? green or blue

33. What is your least favorite food? soda

34. How many wisdom teeth do you have? zero

35. How many people have a crush on you right now? zero . and all time number zero

36. Who do you miss most right now? madeleine

36. Do you want everyone who reads this to do it too? I could care less.

37. What color pants are you wearing? khakis shorts

38. What are you listening to right now? Au contraitre. They Might be giants who else

39. What are the last four digits of your phone number?7890

40. What was the last thing you ate? something from qdoba

41. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? sky blue becasue you know it the one you are laways looking for.

42. How is the weather right now? sunny. I hate it.

43. Who is the last person you talked to on the phone? apple computer

44. First thing you notice about the opposite sex? iq.

45. How are you doing? bored

46. Favorite drink? yoohoo

51. Hair color? brown

52. Eye color? Brown

53. Do you wear contacts? no. glasses for life.

54. Siblings and their ages? ben 10
54. Favorite month? Novemeber

55. Favorite food? sushi
58. Favorite day of the year? time does not exist

59. Are you too shy to ask someone out? yes

60. Scary movies or happy endings? happy endings

61. Summer or winter? fall / spring

62. Hugs or kisses? hugs

63. Relationships or one- night stands? I have never had either.

65. Living arrangement? my room, in my parents house.Fucking suburbs.

66. What book are you reading? farenheight 451

67. Favorite board game? trival pusuit

68. What did you watch on TV last night? stargate sg-1 and farscape

69. Favorite smells? cherrywood

70. What is the first thing you thought of when you woke up this morning? fuck this is the real world not the dream.

Please work

2004-07-20T03:33:00.000-04:00

testing one two three

Test

2004-07-20T02:45:00.000-04:00

Since ecto know wants me to pay to use there software I am going to
e-mail to post until I can find an open source alternative or I find a
working serial number.

Robert

No luck

2004-07-16T14:30:00.000-04:00

It seems someone else's story got posted to slashdot. They had some more background that I did not but the thing is I broke the story first to the page but alas. Is til got a +4 funny post so my /. karama may be recovering from my one offtopic and the post that was incorrectly modded flamebait. How is first post flame bait. Looks like some moderator wanted that post and lost it so moderated me down.

Posted this to slashdot

2004-07-16T02:26:00.000-04:00

In now seems that Google is now offering free software on there home page. There have a link to download a new piece of software called Picasa. Picasa is a free software package that lets you organize and find pictures on your PC. It seems google is becoming more and more interested it organizing our personal data first with our e-mail now with our pictures. Could this be the sign of google finally brining there search technology to the desktop?

Hope it gets published

Geek Test

2004-07-15T21:58:00.000-04:00

I AM 90% GEEK!

UBER GEEK! My mad skills would make Linus Torvalds shake in his boots. But I seldom, if ever, get laid. Well, there are always the web-cam girls!

Take the GEEK test at Fuali.com

When The Internet Goes Down

2004-07-07T02:37:00.000-04:00

What do you do when the internet goes out.
Well today I have to find out.
My dad woke me up with the modem line in his hand.
The dsl system had switched so he need to go pick up a new one at win.net. He would drop of he old one and pick up the new one on the way to a meeting. This of course leaves me with no internet access. Till he gets back. I could use the dial up access but the problem is that I have never configured the dial-up. And all the access number are on the web. I remember one reeding an article on the screen savers when there internet went down. They all did different things. Well i going to document what I shall do on this day with out internet. Or at least till i can get some sort of net connection going.

1:30
Well I am begin with watching the movie "the saint"
2:15
Having seen this movie quite a few time I moved thought the line up
2:17
I landed on an episode of The Next Generation
The episode in which Q's powers get taken away.
Quite a good one I watched it the whole
2:40
I went to the kitchen and eat some potato salad. While watching star trek.
2:50
I returned to my room to finish of the episode
3:00
Since star trek was over I switched back to the saint. I always found the end be the best part.
3:30
Since the saint is over I start cleaning up my hard drive
4:45
I had finished cleaning out the hard drive. So i turned the tv back on and started to watch the invisable man moview
5:00
I remembered that i had yet to watch season 5 of sg-1 on dvd so I watched that till my dad gets home and I get back online.

I learned more about my self in those hours then i had in many years. I truly am addicted to the internet. I am addicted to information itself. I would flip during commercials to a news channel and not know what was going on because I had not logged on to the news sites. I had not click refresh since 3 that morning. I felt lost with out the internet.

When the internet came back on it was if a light inside me that had been put out that morning had suddenly been turned back on.

Robert

Itunes:Light & Day from the album Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind by The Polyphonic Spree

matt welsh

2004-07-05T23:59:00.000-04:00

"...Unix, MS-DOS, and Windows NT (also known as the Good, the Bad, and the Ugly)." (By Matt Welsh)

I hate the DEA

2004-07-02T00:51:00.000-04:00

Today I woke and I felt nothing
I was emotionally numb then
I thought of matthew and sorrow filled my mind

Later on in the day I went to the visitation.
It helped allot seeing matthew.
He seemed strangely normal. (He must just be in the stage where he just feels numb)
He wanted to go eat at the bristol.
So a group of us went to eat at the bristol.
Matthew
Sarah m
Lucy S
Kara D.
Eleanor W
Betsy H
Callie B
catrina (sp?)
and Myself

It was one of the few social gathering I have ever been too
And it was my first "dinner with friends" experience
I have to say that I enjoyed it quite much.

I know understand that perhaps sitting in ones room for hour and hour is not such a good idea.
And that the outside world can offer thing that the world inside can not

Well if everyone would upgrade to the video version of aim and let me video conference it would be different.

This world in which I live has limitless possibilities. I choose to connect to through the internet. I connect to the web and many other layers. I like to read on the news group to watch the irc chats go by. i never seem to take part. I am merely a watcher.

I am like al. from the tv show "quantum leap". I am like a hologram observing the lives of others and helping but not interacting my self. The volunteer project that I am soon going to start should allow me to help the world it a little broader way.
I shall not revel my plan just yet because I do not want it to be taken by another person.

It seems I am the only one who reads the morning paper

2004-06-30T22:47:00.000-04:00

Everyone I have talked to on the net today has no idea what happened to Matthew's dad. Seems that I am the only one who found out. I assume other know and there just not on my buddy list. Well I will continue to tell those who sign on. I will be attending the visitation tomorrow to pay my respects.

I have no way to describe how I feel right now. There is a numbness and a great pain. Death is something I was just starting to grasp.

What I really wonder is how matthew is taking all of this. The death of a parent is something everyone one must face in time. But it should never happen in ones youth. At every important event in Matthew's life there will be a little bit of sorry because his father will not be there to experience it with him. And that is something that no one should ever have to experience.

Robert

I need you again blog

2004-06-30T10:53:00.000-04:00

Death has once again struck the collegiate family. Yet this time it is not with a student but with a parent. I woke up this morning telling me that Matthew's dad was dead. She preceded to tell me that it was suicide. I went down stairs and read the obituary and the article Doctor in prescription case kills himself . I feel numb once again. Things like this should never happen. I am going to assume this is the result of depression. I had a idea once that people in court cases such as these all those involved should be required to attend therapy. So that these events never have to occur again. This also reaffirms my belief that DEA is one big bully.
How is one to handle this?
Well I have gone thought something like this once before with the death of scott's mother. At that time I still did not understand death in the least. The concept had of death was not one I understood. Now that I have come to understand death this is much harder to deal with. Good people should not have this happen to them. When so many evil people live.
I suggest all those that now matthew to attend it is just the right thing to due.

Light & Day from the album "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind" by The Polyphonic Spree

And if anyone needs the mix i created almost a year ago titled"helpful songs during death"
I can be found at the aim:Dreamer8815
and several other port along the net if you knock long enough you will find me at the source.

mm

2004-06-22T00:03:00.000-04:00

To quote from The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy,

A towel is about the most massively useful thing an interstellar hitchhiker can have. Partly it has great practical value - you can wrap it around you for warmth as you bound across the cold moons of Jaglan Beta; you can lie on it on the brilliant marble-sanded beaches of Santraginus V, inhaling the heady sea vapours; you can sleep under it beneath the stars which shine soredly on the desert world of Kakrafoon; use it to sail a mini raft down the slow heavy river Moth; wet it for use in hand-to-hand-combat; wrap it round your head to ward off noxious fumes or to avoid the gaze of the Ravenous Bugblatter Beast of Traal (a mindboggingly stupid animal, it assumes that if you can't see it, it can't see you - daft as a brush, but very ravenous); you can wave your towel in emergencies as a distress signal, and of course dry yourself off with it if it still seems to be clean enough.

More importantly, a towel has immense psychological value. For some reason, if a strag (strag: non-hitch hiker) discovers that a hitchhiker has his towel with him, he will automatically assume that he is also in possession of a toothbrush, face flannel, soap, tin of biscuits, flask, compass, map, ball of string, gnat spray, wet weather gear, space suit etc., etc. Furthermore, the strag will then happily lend the hitchhiker any of these or a dozen other items that the hitchhiker might accidentally have "lost". What the strag will think is that any man who can hitch the length and breadth of the galaxy, rough it, slum it, struggle against terrible odds, win through, and still knows where his towel is is clearly a man to be reckoned with.

Slashdot: News for nerds, stuff that matters

2004-05-21T21:17:00.000-04:00

Slashdot: News for nerds, stuff that matters: "Wait! You have not been prepared! -- Mr. Atoz, 'Tomorrow is Yesterday', stardate 3113.2 "

Apollo

2004-04-12T11:56:00.000-04:00

There is an order of things in this universe. -- Apollo, "Who Mourns for Adonais?" stardate 3468.1

End of Line

2004-04-03T23:11:00.000-05:00

This blog is in response to Leo's blog posting of how is has left techtv. Leo changed my life through his work I finally discovered who I was. I discovered I was a geek. With out his work and the work of everyone at techtv and zdtv I would not be the person I am today. I have been crying on and off every since I found at. I truly can not explain what a large part they all have played in my life. All you nealson family tune into call for help leo techtv program and tss help keep them alive.

Robert

Helpful song During Death track 3
While My Guitar Gently Weeps from the album "1967-1970 (Disc 2)" by The Beatles

überChristian

2004-04-02T21:27:00.000-05:00

a word of my own creation überChristian

I own a dot com

2004-03-31T21:58:00.000-05:00

I now own omtn.com I was just looking at godaddy,com and found that it was available and I pounced.

Well I was always told when you see a four letter domain name buy it and buy now. So I did. Well browder please do not kill me for getting it. But I just had to get it. Maybe in the future it will be become a once more than never fansite but for now it will be my personal website.

Robert
Itunes is punching out
Star Wars Main Theme from the album "Star Wars Trilogy" by John Williams

"Is it really you, Fuzz, or is it Memorex, or is it radiation sickness?" -- Sonic Disruptors comics

2004-03-31T16:23:00.000-05:00

"Is it really you, Fuzz, or is it Memorex, or is it radiation sickness?" -- Sonic Disruptors comics

K.A. Arsdall

2004-03-29T17:07:00.000-05:00

Solutions are obvious if one only has the optical power to observe them over the horizon. -- K.A. Arsdall

I am the mother of all things, and all things should wear a sweater.

2004-03-26T12:20:00.000-05:00

I sit here at my terminal just thinking what will I contribute to the world.
Will I just waste my time on this earth.
I just want to do something with my brain now.
I wish I had a life maybe that would make my life worth something.
I am bored with the universe once again.'

True Nature quiz

2004-03-24T13:20:00.000-05:00

Your True Nature by llScorpiusll
Username
The quality that most appeals to you:	Empathy
In a survival situation, you:	Outsmart your attacker
Your hidden talent is:	Resourcefulness
Your gift is:	Vast knowledge
In groups, you:	Are the center of attention
Your best quality is:	Your empathic nature
Your weakness is:	Your passivity

Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0!

Ok I used my unix log in name because that is my username.
I love the internet and freebsd

I eat lunch in 5 minutes

2004-03-22T23:15:00.000-05:00

I walk over to the dining room stand in line get my food. If the line is long I will go get pasta and a milk sit down and wait for line to lighten up. Once I have gotten food I sit at my regular table {the one just left of the microwave}. I sit facing the window in the second chair from the end. Except when someone gets to my table first I to to the mirror opposite of it.

I eat my food alone. When someone comes to sit on occasion I talk to them. But most days are spent eating alone staring out the window. Not much to look at but it is better then having to sit in with people that are so artificial.

I made a choice a long time ago never to conform to a specific group. Never to join a click {I just do not believe in them}. I am a geek plain and simple. If you can not accept this fact sorry I will not change.

The problem is there are very few non conformists in the world. Those that refuse to accept society rules and be there own person. Well my grade is extra low I am the only geek.

This must be some sort of galactic punishment for something I did in a previous lifetime. Because going throughout middle school which is already a hell for geeks with out another geek is indescribable.

Well I do not want to drag you all into my tube of self pitty. But I still carry those emotional scares from that time in my life.

All I can say is my revenge shall be that i will put lock in codes so that all those that made fun of my skill in computers. When they put there name in for registration it will have some witty dialogue. THen a phone number they must dial and have them come see me in person and apologize for what they did before they can use the software.

Robert
Do You Realize? from the album "Yoshimi Battles The Pink Robots" by The Flaming Lips

Poll Firsts

2004-03-21T00:39:00.000-05:00

First job: Code Monkey
First screen name: Well my first logon was omega
First funeral: Brittiney's
First pet: Tantra
First piercing/tattoo: none
First credit card: Visa Buxx
First enemy: Philip Ardey

LASTS
Last car ride: dad from movie
Last library book checked out: greatest military blunders oops it is late
Last movie watched: Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
Last beverage drank:Gatorade
Last food consumed: bread
Last phone call: Jackie
Last time showered:6pm
Last CD played: songs: Some ataris cd in cambells cars
Last annoyance: Time
Last soda drank: I do not drink soft drinks

//10 songs you've been listening a lot to lately:
1- Pictures of you- the cure
2- Do You Realize? -flaming lips
3- I Fought the law-Green day
4-Bohemian RHapsody-Queen
5- Princes of the universe-Queen
6-Mr.Roboto-styx
7-Undone-Weezer
8-Mr.Blue SKy-E.L.O
9-Mink Car-T.M.B.G
10-THey'll need a Crane-Beatles

//09 things you look forward to:
1) Spring Break
2) summer
3) Learning to code all over again
4) driving
5) my birth day
6) college
7) stargate atlantis
8) Jersey girl march 26
9) stargetes next season

//8 things you like to wear:
1) thinkgeek shirts
2) pummas
3) khakies
4)ipod
5) my tweed jacket
6) my zdtv lanuch team jacket
7) glasses
8) my mock trial t-shirt

//07 things that annoy you:
Omitting due to the fact that I am really tired.

//06 things you say most days:
1) fsck it
2) wrong!
3) bol
4) #!
5) seriously
6) later days

//05 things you do everyday:
1) Code
2)Check slashdot
3) listen to music
4)read
5) think about time

//04 people you want to spend more time with:
Omitting due to the fact that I am really tired.

//03 movies you could watch over and over again:
1) Real Genius
2) Stargate
3) Tron

//02 of your favorite songs at the moment:
1) Mr Blue Sky
2) Do you realize?

//01 person you could spend the rest of your life with:
My computer is the one that cares about me enough to spend the rest of my life with me.

robert

2004-03-18T02:34:00.000-05:00

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Nietzsche

2004-03-18T00:34:00.000-05:00

We have art that we do not die of the truth. -- Nietzsche

Larry Wall

2004-03-15T03:43:00.000-05:00

I'm sure that that could be indented more readably, but I'm scared of the awk parser. -- Larry Wall in <6849@jpl-devvax.JPL.NASA.GOV>

The nick quiz

2004-03-10T00:06:00.000-05:00

ok I took the nick quiz again thinking a little more about my answers and I get

You are YOU CAN'T DO THAT ON TELEVISION.
Sometimes, you wonder why you couldn't just be
Canadian. Some people say you are weird. You
have an interesting sense of humor and a
meaningless life. But, you're nearly Canadian,
so did you expect better?

Which old school Nickelodeon show are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

I really really liked this show. Man nick used to be one kick ass network what ever happened to it. Oh! yeah Viacom should out and became all lame. Remember the old MTV back when it was worth watching.

I quote star trek 3 to show my sentiment "Kahnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!!!!!!"

Later days
Robert

Music currently dancing around to
Princes of the Universe from the album "A Kind of Magic" by Queen

/.

2004-03-08T23:48:00.000-05:00

Linux: because a PC is a terrible thing to waste -- ksh@cis.ufl.edu put this on Tshirts in '93

quiz 2

2004-03-08T23:30:00.000-05:00

You are WILD AND CRAZY KIDS. You couldn't get
through life without a little fun... or a neon
colored t-shirt. You are a team player and
really into Omar Gooding. GO YOU!

Which old school Nickelodeon show are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

quiz animal

2004-03-08T23:25:00.000-05:00

You are Form 3, Unicorn: The Innocent.

"And The Unicorn knew she wasn't meant to
go into the Dark Wood. Disregarding the advice
given to her by the spirits, Unicorn went
inside and bled silver blood.. For her
misdeed, the world knew evil."

Some examples of the Unicorn Form are Eve
(Christian) and Pandora (Greek).
The Unicorn is associated with the concept of
innocence, the number 3, and the element of
water.
Her sign is the twilight sun.

As a member of Form 3, you are a curious
individual. You are drawn to new things and
become fascinated with ideas you've never come
in contact with before. Some people may say
you are too nosey, but it's only because you
like getting to the bottom of things and
solving them. Unicorns are the best friends to
have because they are inquisitive.

Which Mythological Form Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

slashdot quotes rule

2004-03-03T18:09:00.000-05:00

Quote I found on slash dot

Sometimes a feeling is all we humans have to go on. -- Kirk, "A Taste of Armageddon", stardate 3193.9

Yet another Poll

2004-03-03T17:48:00.000-05:00

Wish on stars?:Yes
First crush: You thinkI would let that get onto the net hahah
Single or attached?: single.
Do you believe in love at first sight?: yes
Do you believe in "the one?": I do
Favorite place to be kissed?: Never been kissed.
First Kiss:Never been kissed.
Are you a tease?: no
Bought: Undone (The Sweater Song) from iTunes Music Store
Ate & Drank: Double pack of cup of soup
Gloves or mittens: gloves.
This or that: this.
Hugged: My mom when I said I could not go to school today.
Instant messaged: Madeleine Lambert
Been in a fight? I rather not answer that question.
Your bedroom like?: Messy.
What is your biggest fear?: schizophrenia.
What feature are you most insecure about?: my thighs
Spontaneous or plain?: plain.
Are you happy with your given name?: yes
Places have you lived in (for over 3 months)?: louisville
Countries have you been to?: USA, canada, France
Jobs you have held?: 1 my consulting job. 42 bucks an hour beat that.
Years of school have you attended?: Sophomore in high school you do the math
did/do you have braces?: Nope
who's your favorite teacher?: Calerwood=God
what is your favorite dream?: Winning the fields metal
do you believe in ghosts?: yes
If I were a day of the week I would be: Friday. Can we say Sci-Fi
If I were a time of day I would be: 12:00 pm

Well this is a sick day. My stomach still is rout with discomfort. And my head feels like it is going to explode.
I had a strange dream last night. I was in school in a room that was set up differently then any room at school. Travis was the teacher. We were talking about copy right law. Then mrs, Harrison came in saying i need to do something in the light. I said I have not been out in the sun for more then a hour in 12 months. Showed my skin and how it was weird from sun exposer.
Then I woke up. to a phone call.

My god so many people call this house during the day. I almost unplugged the phone. My dad changed the phone in the guest room. So it sounds like the one from the matrix. I pick it up and think I am going to be unplugged.

A note to history

2004-03-02T23:29:00.000-05:00

I went home sick on monday.
And stayed home sick on tuesday.
Just wanted history to remember that

Why I will not become a lawyer because there is a chance I would have to work for litigious bastards

Just doing my part in the google bombing

Robert

If I were a book

2004-03-02T18:06:00.000-05:00

You're Ulysses!

by James Joyce

Most people are convinced that you don't make any sense, but compared
to what else you could say, what you're saying now makes tons of sense. What people do
understand about you is your vulgarity, which has convinced people that you are at once
brilliant and repugnant. Meanwhile you are content to wander around aimlessly, taking in
the sights and sounds of the city. What you see is vast, almost limitless, and brings you
additional fame. When no one is looking, you dream of being a Greek folk hero.

Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.

We are victories

2004-02-28T20:14:00.000-05:00

Well after waking up from my 4 hour nap. I walk over to my phone and see I have voice mail messages. So I call me voice mail. There are a 6 messages. 5 are from dad saying that he is at school. Ok so I delete those then I get to number 6.

It is hawkines ever so non gracefully saying "hey we won! so um we are going to frankfurt........"I recored to my phone to keep forever now where is my bluetooth adapter.

Ok now my mood is stellar I listening to "Princes of the Universe" which is the theme song to HIghlander. And Just feeling great. Nothing can top this feeling. After having the pains of defeat from last year. I have this.

We triumph over KCD and after taking there quickening moved on toward St. X.THen we defeated them. It was great we have defeated the rival school which gets us major points at school.

Most of all we get to go to state. Something we have not done in a while. So we get to do that. This feeling is like no other. I highly recommend the next time you do something big geting the song "Princess of the Universe" by queen and trust me you will be carried to the next level.

Ok I have to go fun around my yard pretending to be Ducan McLoud "sp" from Highlander. Ah.. that is one really good show.

Well I have to use this feeling while I have it.

In the end there can be only one.
Robert

iTunes is playing what else
Princes of the Universe from the album "A Kind of Magic" by Queen

Message board

2004-02-24T13:40:00.000-05:00

Well I lost some geek point and set up a free message board
http://b4.boards2go.com/boards/board.cgi?user=robertcu
yeah I should have had coded a php board.
But All my web space does not allow php or perl.
I could set it up on a linux box in my room
But you know, I have a fear of being /.doting

SIck Days' blow
Robert

There are just some songs...

2004-02-23T04:07:00.000-05:00

That make you feel a certain way. The songs themselves serve as an interjection into your mind. The song I am thinking of right now is Across The Universe from the album "1967-1970 (Disc 2)" by The Beatles
When ever I get really really calm I get covered in goose bumps and a chill runs down my spine.

I would just like to note. Who ever came up with "Let it Be... Naked" was fucking stoned out of there mind. The totally fucked up Across The Universe. It just does not sound right it is not the song that we all grew up with. It is not the song that changed our lives. This is like saying here is the pre alpha version of the software it is just like it came of the programmers desk. Well I do not care. I want the finale release. I should go check to make sure there still sell the regular the Let it Ve. I only have it on vinyl and cassette. If not to some p2p to get it a nice Digital copy. Or to ebay. They did this with the Anthology series and it was fine we all knew these were rough cuts.

My a big fear is some kid somewhere is going to listen to Let it Be...Naked and not feel what hey would feel if they listened to the proper version .

God Bless the Internet
Robert

Insomnia

2004-02-23T03:55:00.000-05:00

Well it decided to strike tonight. When this happens I usually have a bunch of day dreams.

But since I can not sleep top ten songs in iTunes some of these are rather sad but they are what they are
1.Kiss me-Sixpence no the Richer 153 times
2.Mr.Blue SKy-E.L.O 100 times
3.Kiss me son of god-they might me giants 62 times
4.Pencil Rain-they might be giants 48 times
5.They'll need a crane-they might be giants 48 times
6.Theme from flood-they might be giants 46 times
7.Mink car-they might be giants 46 times
8.Number one-Chaz Jankel 43 times
9.Good Night-The beatles 41 times
10. Come one-Dexy's Midnight Runners 40 times

Many are more desireving to be on this list but my old ipod did not sync to itunes number of times played. My new one does so this should change it a few weeks

I can't sleep! :(
Robert

42

2004-02-23T02:24:00.000-05:00

Many of you know how strong the number 42 is in my life. 42 is the number used in Douglas Adams novels as the meaning of life, the universe, and everything.
Well today I found something very very very eerie.

I was looking around the internet and found this.
Every person at legacy.com is given a unique id number.
Brittiney's id number is 1421181.
I am the sponsor for the guest book there. I check by every so often and I just noticed that the number was in the url. I then looked around at the was the number to associate anything there with her.

To make it even eerier, eight is my favorite number.

I know that these numbers are given at random but it still seem eerie.

Looking for Truth and Beauty,
Robert

aim

2004-02-22T22:56:00.000-05:00

AIM IM with Madeleine Lambert
10:38 PM
Robert: Greetings program
10:40 PM
Robert : that is all we are you know.
Robert : programms
Robert : very complex programs
Robert : hardwired into a biological machine
10:45 PM
Robert : running around in a world not under our control
Madeleine Lambert: All I really, really want is you. Don't you get it?
Robert : Could we be under some sort of test
Robert : What happens if we are failing this test.
Robert : What if the punishment is humanity is blinked out of existence?
10:50 PM
Robert : What if there is some like picrad being judged by by something like Q.?What if that person fails?
Robert : these are the questions that keep me up at night

The magic of Bol

2004-02-22T13:04:00.000-05:00

What is bol?
It functions as an interjection. Such as used in conversation just as bol. Similar to w00t.
Yet is added to a word pre-fix is only at the end. like showerbol
Yet it seems to also function like tense change because sometime when you add it to a word you drop the end of the base such as brisbol.

The mystery of bol.
We know who created it Elizabeth Post.
I added all the grammatical idea.
And we all shall spread the word of bol

Bol
Robert

Funny quote

2004-02-22T11:25:00.000-05:00

One thing kids like is to be tricked. For instance, I was going to take my little nephew to DisneyLand, but instead I drove him to an old burned-out warehouse. "Oh, no," I said, "DisneyLand burned down." He cried and cried, but I think that deep down he thought it was a pretty good joke. I started to drive over to the real DisneyLand, but it was getting pretty late.
(Jack Handey)

Funny quote I never want to loose

helpful song during death Playlist

2004-02-20T23:12:00.000-05:00

On september 22 of last year I began keeping track of the song I listen to during the time of death. I have kept this list to my self. But it is titme to set it free upon the world. Maybe it can help you liked it helped me.
http://homepage.mac.com/robertcunningham/FileSharing7.html
I have put it in the text file and in a easier to navigate excel file.
All those that would like to perchance listen to it. Please just ask.

Tears still falling from face
Robert

"I do not say i will burn a copy becasue that would show intent to break the DMCA but that does not mean I will not burn a cd of it for you if you ask. "

They Killed Janet

2004-02-20T22:53:00.000-05:00

On tonight's episode of Stargate Sg-1 they killed the character Dr. Janet Frasier. I have been watching this show for 7 years. That is about half of my life so far. When they announced she was one that died I cried. At the memorial seen I cried. When we were at the the house of senior airman wells and we found out he named his daughter Janet I cried.

I have spent every friday night either in my room or my living room watching this show. It means alot to me. Janet was one of my favorite characters. Why in the hell did we not send her to the Tok'ra or the Asgard or the Nox.I know we already played the character dies and we bring him back thing. But it was Dr.Fraiser. She saved everyone.

And what is going to happen to Cassie the adopted daughter of Janet. Her real parents were already killed by the Gou'ld. Now janet, who is going to take care of her.

Who is going to replace her?
The base needs a doctor. Can anyone fill doc fraisers shoes.

This episode brought all the pain back from my real world loss. I am going to link back to those blog entries because it just hurts too much to talk about it now.
This is the month it all happened
http://geekbook.blogspot.com/2003_09_01_geekbook_archive.html

Tears dripping on my keyboard
Robert

ahoy!

2004-02-19T02:37:00.000-05:00

Hi how you all doing?
I have not had a chance to blog in a while my other quest have taken more time then expected.
Lax practice started two days ago.
If you look up hardcore in the dictionary. You will find a picture of coach smith. He will lead us to victory I can see it.

But I got I chat av 2.1 beta working I had to put my self in a dmz zone for it to work thought. If anyone has any better ideas they would be much appreciated.

But back to me getting ichat av working. I got it working with Robby Linker. It was so cool because it was like he was right there. It sounded so real. And the video quality was great. I played Mr.Roboto over ichat av thats right RIAA I played it through the internet.

I also got it to work bit posto but audio did not work. So bring forth the cell phones. It is really cool to be able to do this sort of thing.

I have more faith that apple has the best programmers in the worl. And they are debt free.

Robert

ok

2004-02-14T22:55:00.000-05:00

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Top Ten Sites

2004-02-14T22:35:00.000-05:00

Thought I would update the top ten sites list from Camnio.
In no particular order
1.Slashdot
2. Ask Slashdot
3.Slashdot Apple
4. Hiptop Forums
5.Google
6.Leoville
7.My router
8.MacCentral
9.Mac in Touch
10.Elizabeth Post's Easyjournal

Well those are them

Robert